it is 3.45 am...graveyard shift for smone who is stl working out there on this cold nite. yes, i feel a gush of coldness in me. there is a cold look in my eyes, i saw zhuohao who was walking back and i was in front of him, he must have felt it in me too, the coldness...cos he didnt tok to me at all. my atitude is cold.

i believed in promises and i didnt..and some time ago, i trusted in promises once again but today, i lose the belief again..i hate trusting pple..each time u believe in someone, be expected to be take the disappointment. i didnt expect it..and i fell..it hurts and im feelin the tears welling up..but i will swallow them..

"dun trust them" these 3 words echo and they are breakin the silence of the nite..its gettin so loud that i could hear the resonance in me. she was rite, she could tk care of me, she tries her best nt to let me down, she knows exactly wat i want. why did i refuse to listen??

is it wrong of me to expect? sometimes i just hope that they will do the things i will do for them, how wrong is it? Do unto others what u want others to do unto you..i did but they gave me disappointments. was it a case of high expectations or i shdnt hv trust them at all??

i feel sad each time im faced with such a situation and i wana scold myself for handling my trust to someone so easily, shd hv just be firm and remain who i was.

i dunnoe wat else to say..thats that. i feel somthg rollin down my cheeks...oh...its a cold tear drop..
Sunshine ; Tuesday, April 20, 2004