I'm just different.
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
law and orderas i took my very first step into my profession, i did not think of it as an easy journey or a dwindling road. i supposed it helps somehow, when i didnt think of anything would be smooth or rough. although i spend about 9 hours in my office, i cant seem to get rid of any work load simply because i will be assigned more workload. im going to heed charisa's and nizam's advices, at least im so blessed to be given chances to even have the ability to work and to be given work. just heard of someone who is being sued for bankruptcy. when you cant pay for your purchases, you cant escape from the law. i have been thinking, what is law and order? a form of punishment, some form of deterrent? you really can play with it, those who sue are looking at it as some kind of justice, perhaps revenge and even protection, while the receiving end will see it as punishment and maybe jugdement. when we want to guard our personal interests, we take law into our own hands. we engaged lawyers, send letters, charge people and so on. all these include money. if we have the money, we can "buy" law, if not, be prepared to eat the dust. if thats the case, does law then, usually, stand on the rich man's side? is this still equal then?we all love to take law into our own hands. when we are in a religion, we believe that whatever we do wrong for, we will receive punishment, so we tell people, "hey, u shdnt do this, u will blah blah blah..." who are we to say all these? we just love to side with the majority. their rules rule. when i just heard that the bus driver got my dad into an accident, a part of me was hoping for some sort of punishment for the driver. due to his flippant behaviour, my dad got hurt and one person actually died on the spot. i just felt that it was right for me to curse the driver but after a sanity's break, i was thinking what do i want from the driver? he himself is hurt oredi, perhaps that was the supposed law which caught on him for being so irresponsible. God is good. He forgives us for all our sins no matter how deadly our sins were, as long as we repent. God desires mercy and is looking out for the sinful not the righteous.may God bless my dad who has met with an accident and the irresponsible driver.
Sunshine ; Wednesday, June 29, 2005
Saturday, June 11, 2005
game of strength + perseverance + sweat = sweet victorywe finally won. we started a good game right from the beginning and im so proud of my team. yujiao : "nahnah gd game!"peili : "u played well leh, cos you can just come into the game and get into the game easily."yaya : "u played very well last nite..cos u supported a lot."yulan : "well played."coach : " janet played well. "me : *LOL* " actually i really didnt think i played well but since everyone thought so then ok loh. ill just accept positive remarks." *praise the Lord*well i must said it was really exciting for me cos i had to get ready in 20 seconds' time and try to do get warmed up and master the play in 15 mins' time. it was soon over, just 15 mins and my legs almost collapsed. for once, i can tell myself, " im very proud of myself. " at least my team mates recognised my good play. another prayer request answered. thank God.people who watched the game would have deemed it exciting and interesting. we have players who really played their hearts out and one player who was so ill disciplined, she is the only player, to date, whom i know will ruin the reputation of her team. wat kind of nonsense is she displayin? cant lose to a better team who is willing to fight harder than she does? pls la..and come on la, look at who you are toking to? the whole world probably knows lin and i are best friends, so u shd just shhh...just concentrate on the game, dont make comments that are non constructive. regi said i slim down. i dont really feel anythg when i hear that..am i supp to be happy? but that just mean that i hv not been eating well rite? shd be sad rite? i want to eat and eat but be healthy!! yeah!!toked to lin last nite, life is worth the living when you have someone whom you can totally trust and know she will always be there with you..no matter how far u have gone..
Sunshine ; Saturday, June 11, 2005
Thursday, June 09, 2005
well it did bother me...i guess those who should know whats bothering me already knew whats bothering me. anyway it will be gone.went to gym, met up with rc, met yan yan, going to meet up mahjong kakis, gg to start work, gg to start packing up, well..my life is well provided rite? talking to people or just a msg sent to me, actually let me know more abt myself or rather reminds me of what im capable of which sometimes, i lose myself in times. im probably just living up to expectations but faith has reminded me to live up to God's expectations and i think that will be enough.after i got to befriend yew ling, working doesnt seem to be that scary anymore. at least we do share the same thoughts and i think she is very amicable. people whom i didnt think care actually do. i do look forward to seeing how far i could go in my career, its a mixture of fear and excitement inside me but i allow more portion of excitement..hahaha..i also look forward to seeing 4 of us walkin into church attending services..me n the girls.
Sunshine ; Thursday, June 09, 2005
Sunday, June 05, 2005
new and old, forgetting and letting go..it was a safe drive to KL and im thankful that it was a smooth journey throughout. i received my results, thank God i cleared all my mods. somehow it really didnt bother me as much as i tot it would have. i dont know if its a good thing or im just pretending to be fine. a large part of me already gave up the tot 1 yr ago but its dwellin in me again. im learning to let go of the small part and i think im handling it rather well. im moving on to another phase of my life and im really excited abt it. i guess only faith and my dear yan yan know exactly what im saying. just something that i dislike..ill get darker!!! again??!! pls donate ur sun block to me!!! all cos ill be the netball coach..again..sigh..i love being with pple whom i love..but they just have some qualities which i find it so tough for me to tolerate. i really feel like biting my sis's head sometimes for all the blunt statements she makes to us. sometimes i just feel like staying alone..i do miss hall life, minus the dirty washing machines, rats infested room, pantry which is never clean, girls who have different understanding of personal cleanniness, noisiness, i miss being alone in my room..its not that bad afterall. but i always submit to my cravings of all the "nicelties" at home.well..back to the real world..i dont always get what i want.
Sunshine ; Sunday, June 05, 2005