Tuesday, August 31, 2004
"hey i just wanna say i miss you. its one of those nights where i keep thinking of everything we've been thru and all. u've been a treasured friend to me and someone i dont wanna lose. u're my best friend!!"---sms frm my best friend huilin.
after receiving her sms, my day felt so wonderful. i dun see her everyday, in fact, i have not seen her for a few months already but i stil feel so close to her. like her, i still think of the tough times we've been through and how we reconciled. i know both of us treasure each other a lot and i thank God that He has given me such a blessing in my life. i guess its not easy to keep friends so close to ur heart when, in the first place, its not easy to search for a friend who loves you and keeps you in her heart.
saw bobby in the canteen but i didnt really tok to him cos i was "busy with yan" according to bobby, in actual fact i just happened to see my fav yanyan buying food so i just walked up to her. anyway, cos i was in a rush and didnt stop to say hi and bye to bobby, im labelled as unfriendly!!! opps..i didnt think he wanted to talk too..i received a few sms frm him, "you always look good" hahhah im the princess!!! of cos!! hahha..
im still preparing the stuff for my presentation, so many cutting..i hate all these arty stuff!!!
Sunshine ; Tuesday, August 31, 2004
Monday, August 30, 2004
couldnt concentrate during lectures. totally switched off for the first 3 hours of my day..i dunnoe what was i thinking..just couldnt pay attention.
i recovered...fully..or so i guess. went to takashimaya and bought all the snacks i love and miss!!! kimchi seaweed, mac nuts, fish cake soaked with chili, chicken balls and raspberry ice cream.wanted to buy some more jap snacks but i thought i should limit myself, buy next time!!
i guess its easy for me to say smthg to hurt others, esp when im tired, frustrated with myself..i just say these hurtful words out as if they mean nothg to the other party. i get easily frustrated nowadays..i just feel like i want this to happen, that to happen but i cant really let it happen cos it prob doesnt just concern me, or rather, i dunnoe what shd i do..
anyway im quite tired all these...someone please come love me..
Sunshine ; Monday, August 30, 2004
Saturday, August 28, 2004
i just had training. started at 8am this morning and i thought im in this time cos i haven really recover and i was coughing like a dying ah mah. anyway my performance surprised me, as mentioned, i thought i wont be able to run and concentrate on the training but it went well. at least i didnt faint..ahahha...though i looked extremely pale during the runs.
played street netball or something similar lah, couldnt take the running at first and felt very breathless but i was very determined to press on, i think its in me, i will never give up on court. i hope
this spirit will bring me through everything im doing in life. i have God to thank, i prayed very hard before training, i asked God to show me the ways to be valuable player and not a liability in any sort. Thank God, weather was super good, i did not faint and i did not give up.
i didnt know i was that sick until i took the stupid cough syrup. i drank 10ml and i was barely awake for 8 hours yesterday. i slept for abt 16 hours!!!!! but anyway i think i just needed a rest. and im feeling beta today though i still feel that bit of drowsiness in me. i was so pissed with the cough syrup that i threw it away immediately after i came back. tasted like some detergent and made me super duper drowsy.
i feel very moody these days. i dunnoe why. i just feel like im thinking of a lot of things and i dunnoe how to express myself..perhaps for the first time, i dunnoe what shd i do to myself. i feel very pressured all around. studies, trainings....i like to commit to things and people but i realised that im also losing my personal space..maybe not really losing but its like an exchange, my time alone and spending time with others. i miss the times when i can just cycle to the beach and write my diary and cry alone. let the breeze blows my troubles away, let the waves wash away my tears, let the roaring of the sea drown my sorrows...
but i still love everyone ard me..
wats on next week, other than lessons proper:
- monday--ivp training, prepare for presentaion.
- tuesday--prepare for presentation.
- wednesday--presentation, study for test.
- thursday--ivp training, study for test.
- friday--avalanche training, study for test.
- saturday--ivp training camp, study for test.
- sunday--ivp training camp, study for test.
Sunshine ; Saturday, August 28, 2004
Wednesday, August 25, 2004
i cried during class meeting. sent out an email to the class on monday, tellin them i want to step down. brought out veron's incident as well. i guess most of them misunderstood that this incident triggered my stepping down but i told them its not. anyway, i just started crying when told them i didnt expect such despise from our fellow classmates. seriously i didnt know what affected me that much..i think its becos i didnt enjoy having my intentions wronged. well i dun deny that some of us do talk a lot during lectures but i didnt think that the way veron approached the matter was right. two wrongs dont make one right. we dun deserve being insulted. veron emailed me lat nite and apologised and i think i understand what she needs frm us. at least she didnt mentioned anything mean, instead she said something nice.
anyway, i finally stepped down. received a few emails frm my classmates and really want to praise God for these people He put around me, at least they appreaciated what i have done.
drank some spoilt soya bean milk last nite, *pukes* super gross!!!!!! the milk actually turned brown already and it was so acidic and it bit my tongue...the smell was killing too man..yucks!!!!!!!!!!!!! thank God for keepin me alive still.
watched 13 going on 30. they found someone who really looks like jennifer garner. the ending is rather predictable and movie-goers'-preferred-ending. i thought ruffalo looks cute when he was 30 instead of 13. i cried at the last part cos it was so sad to see two people, who are so in love with each other, not spending their lives together. well, 3 .5 stars for the show, wanted to give just 3 but the funny characters they injected got the show extra 0.5.
i think at times, we really wish we could changed our lives somehow, or turn back time. more so when we said something or did something we regret so much, like saying something that hurts others' feelings. there are many times i wish i could have done something else but come to think of it, all that i have done, all that i have been through, raise me. if i have chosen any other routes, i might not be here now, living this life. and i love my life now. im doing all the things i love now, i dance, i serve God, i play netball, im in ivp, in avalanche, i eat many times a day, i have God in my life, i have my friends, i love my family. i have many blessings in my life.
we should count our blessings. i think its a blessing that i could wake up everyday, greetin God "good morning" and sleep at nite peacefully after sayin " goodnite" to God.
i found a song that brings tears not only in my eyes but in my heart too..reminds me that Jesus died for us cos of love, all becos of love. He was all alone, being crucified, like a rose trampled on the ground, crying in pain all becos He wants us to know He loves us. Thank you Lord, becos You died so that we might live. we are so unworthy.
As little children
We would dream of Christmas morn
Of all the gifts and toys
We knew we'd find
But we never realized
A baby born one blessed night
Gave us the greatest gift of our lives
We were the reason
That He gave His life
We were the reason
That He suffered and died
To a world that was lost
He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live
As the years went by
We learned more about gifts
The giving of ourselves
And what that means
On a dark and cloudy day
A man hung crying in the rain
All because of love, all because of love
I've finally found the reason for living
It's in giving every part of my heart to Him
In all that I do every word that I say
I'll be giving my all just for Him, for Him
He is my reason to live
Sunshine ; Wednesday, August 25, 2004
Tuesday, August 24, 2004
i was pissed the whole day. didnt sleep well the previous night. lucky ah yve bought me breakfast else i would have had to starve until 1230. anyway didnt have any lecture notes to refer to so was pretty much not paying attention. i really dunnoe what these lecturers have in their mind...they think they will have all our attention by not giving us any lecture notes. on the contrary, i wasnt listening at all.
met my class and informed them abt the dictionary thg. some came with a black face as if i owe them a favour, i think i can just dump the whole thg to them and let them collect their own money. no one really appreciates what others have done for them. anyway i was even more pissed when someone just interrupted me and paraphrased what i have just said, giving me that kind of impression that i cant handle the class. i mean, pls loh..she was parroting what i said, whats the difference? then keep saying that "i will zap for u all, i will do this for u all, i will do that for u all" i was like what the hell!!! i already said no more copies and she still want to zap, zap what shit?! well, seems like she wants to give us the impression that only she can do things for the class then so be it.
went for another lecture after lunch and we were 5 mins late. we wanted to sit in the first row and this jialing simply refused to remove her bag which was on one of the seats. 6 of us were standing there and the whole group of students were staring at us. after she reluctantly removed her bag, she made this super mean comment "wah sit here ah, chao si ren ah". she is a mother of one and she is a chinese teacher, i cant believe what her child will grow up to be like. how could she say such a thg!!??? i mean, perhaps she should just alert us politely that we talk too loudly and im very sure we will just quiet down or something, rather than just passing such a mean comment.
according to sources, she can get very mean and already deemed my clique as people who are very loud and superficial though i dunnoe in what sense. i was very upset when i heard this. we have been classmates and going to be classmates for one more sem, all she can think of us and say abt us, are all in a condescending manner. i dunnoe why im so affected..im both furious and upset. cant believe that someone in the class hates us so much.
i still feel low although its the end of the day already, i dunnoe why, what jialing said had so much impact on me. its not as if i yearn to be accepted by her, i just cant believe someone's heart could bear such grudge against another, so harmless. perhaps yan is rite, there are all kinds of people in teaching, this profession. the good ones, the hardworking one, the dedicated ones as opposed to the smoke ones, the lazy ones, and of cos, the ones who lack ethics and maturity.
it is yet another day, that left me speechless...but full of emotions.
Sunshine ; Tuesday, August 24, 2004
Friday, August 20, 2004
im super irritated with myself. probably not my fault that im feeling this way, i guess external factors do affect me too.
went for training and didnt think i performed, as usual. IVP starts in 2 weeks' time and here i am, taking my own sweet time to fit into the team. unfit, cant do proper feeding, cant run at the correct timing, i seriously dunnoe wat im doing. i attribute everything to my mental block. i dunnoe what im doin to myself.
cant even get into my blog a few hours ago. dunnoe what the hell is going on. and the stupid chinese star hangs my entire com. simply retardness. and i have to use my retarded chinese star cos my IT savvy tutor puts up this platform for us to engage in online forum and i dun even know wat to comment. i hate it when i hv to do thgs for the sake of doing it.
i feel like im losing my privacy. there are things i cant do, cant say just becos others are invading into my space. in actual fact, i think these people are plain dishonest. they just like to find out more when i dun want to tell them things, so they resort to other sources. isnt it weird that just becos of these people, i have to adjust myself? i should just tell them off, why should i just stand by and do nothg?
poor yanyan suffered cos i said smthg very mean to her. sorry dear, i really didnt mean it..
i wish huilin is here with me. she will listen to all my frustrations. she is prob the only one who understands how i really feel.
Sunshine ; Friday, August 20, 2004
Thursday, August 19, 2004
my work is piling. tests are coming up. presentations are round the corner. i wonder what nie is doing to us. sometimes i dun even know what i have learnt, to teach my primary school kids. i dun even know why i was not offered PE instead..sigh..probably everything will be a whole different story. i will be with bobby, rizal, natalie, joe and of cos my fav yan yan. on the other hand, will then miss a chance to meet ivy, faith and yve.
talking abt yve, she bought all of us a key chain. so sweet. i insisted that she personalised my name as princess...hahahha. she asked me abt my princess identity, so did my tutor. i told them, my Father is the King of Kings, and Lord of Lords, thus, princess thou art. simple rite..
i think i slept at 12 plus, woke up at 9 then slept again, then woke up at 11 and fell asleep again till 12. its 1230 now. i have a list of what-to-do today, i hope i will complete them.
its my brother's POP today. im still contemplating if i should go cos i got trgn.
my stomach doesnt hurt anymore, thanks to God who healed me. thanks to yanyan who prayed for me too.
Sunshine ; Thursday, August 19, 2004
Tuesday, August 17, 2004
i love bazaar!!! i hate bazaar!!
woke up tired. haven felt so tired before on a monday morning. dragged my feet to LT 10 when i saw people setting up stalls..haahah BAZAAR!!!! rushed into lecture theatre to find ivy, told her abt the bazaar and we cant wait for break.
was super hungry in the morning. ate rice for lunch. yve came up with her Q & A session again, "janet, has anyone said u are fat?" i said no. at the back of my head, i was thinking, "was i supposed to say yes?" but truly, no one has ever said i am fat. im probably the only one who always complained im fat and yet i just wun stop eating. hahah..i will NEVER, EVER give up my chocolates, NYDC mud pie, chips, Andersen's almond ice cream cone for anything else!!! hahahha..i guess all the trainings and dance sessions really did keep me in shape. wah...come to think of it, i train on mondays, thursdays, fridays, dance on saturdays and sundays.
cooked maggie for dinner, had chicken wings to complete the meal..yumyum..not hungry at all after that, even now..usually i get hungry at abt 1130 or so. time check, 235am and im still full.
poor yanyan still got work to do..yawn..i wish i have a magic wand now, then all i need to do is swish! swoosh! and all her work is done!!!
i bought a handmade handbag and 3 pieces of panties at the bazaar..hahah and something else. i stand in awe of myself. cant believe how much i could spend at such a mini fair. i love it and i hate it.
Sunshine ; Tuesday, August 17, 2004
Monday, August 16, 2004
weekend delight
woke up tired on saturday morning. rushed off to collect medical report. rushed off to buy 2 donuts. rushed off to ballet. learnt 3 new songs in less than 2 hours and i cant register the steps in my mind at all. probably cos i was troubled, didnt sleep well on friday night despite the fact that my body was tired to the bone.
limin asked me abt my swollen eyes, as much as i tired to control myself, i could feel the tears welling up in my eyes. anyway, didnt say much cos ballet training started.
met yve to ice skate. wah!!! it was fun filled!!! she taught me how a few different ways to skate and i managed to skate comfortably although it was the first time i try. it wasnt that tough as i thought it would be..hahah..anyway, if not for the skating session, ill probably feel just as lousy.
yanyan came for service today. im glad that she enjoyed it. she actually caught me peeping at my dance mate for the correct step..opps..i thought it was rather subtle oredi..
i feel very moody these few days. i wish i could feel better.
Sunshine ; Monday, August 16, 2004
Saturday, August 14, 2004
connection is super retarded at home. im only half way through downloading my msn messenger.
just came back from yet another training. evie's friends took the trouble to come dowm and play with us. they are, undeniably, good. they were fast and passes were superb too. other than commiting ten thousand fouls, i think they are of high calibre. didnt play well cos i was really worn out, after last nite's ivp training. i love to train actually. although im so unfit, i like the kind of feeling when im so soak in my perspiration and hyperventilating, hahhaa..sadistic i know, but its the only time i know im playing some good netball.
i hugged peili and we went for dinner together with sharon, regi and her bf and ming too. as usual, peili was being make fun of and we enjoy teasing her. thats becos we love her. i love peili so much, i wish there are more things i could do for her. i wish God will relieve her of her stressful work.
i love to hug people. when i come home from hall, i try to grab my nephews and hug them, when i see peili or huilin, i run to them like a little child running to the arms of her mum who is waiting for to fetch her home. i think hugging someone makes them feel loved, warm and comfortable. sometimes, i dont even feel like letting go of the person im hugging. why? becos not everyday you will find someone you wanna hug, not everyday you will find someone you love to hug. instead of saying how much i miss you, how deep i love you, i want to be hugged cos it just says so much. anyway, i think im a very "touchy" person. i just love to hold someone's hand or just clinging onto someone's arm , walking down the streets...i remember when i was a young girl, i never fail to hold my father's hand if we were out. even now, when i sleep, i hope there is someone whom i can cling to.. i think it is my source of comfort and i feel secure being close to a person.
had my eed presentation today, i thought ada and syafridah did very well for our shield cos it sure didnt look easy to come up with one at all. ws bit pissed when one of my grp members just passed one of her part to me and expected me to explain a point. i mean, i explained to her what does this particular point meant oredi and she still wanna throw it back to me??!! just makes me feel that she didnt prepare herself for this presentation.
i hate coughing now...each time i cough, my body ache..especially my ribs, feel like they are breaking apart..
Sunshine ; Saturday, August 14, 2004
Friday, August 13, 2004
i spoke to faith. she said she actually knew the times when i was upset. well, i was la... for many times..but i think i need to get over it. i come to realise that people have their choices of close friends and friends who they just laugh, eat and drink with. anyway, i do not just treasure yve, in fact i find that i have grown closer to ivy too. just that yve is very sensitive to me. i treasure all 3 of you babes..
i guess when u treasure someone a lot, u tend to feel very hurt when he/she makes a careless remark or did something tactlessly. just like how i got very upset when huilin was very close to sophia and how she chose to believe yanli instead of me. when ming and i quarrelled, most of the times i will just start crying. when yanyan gets very upset, i could not smile too.
i think any other friends could just crack some silly jokes and laugh with me, ill just laugh too. but not everyday i will find someone whom i could share my worries with. not everyone is willing to take up your burden for you. not everyone feels upset when, in actual fact, you drove them up the wall initially.
its becos i love them. thats why i cry when they let me down, that is why i cry when we fight, that is why no other can satisfy when they are not around. that is why God died for us on the cross. becos He loves us.
i really dont mind i cant be the one who makes you laugh, i only wish to be the one who sits with you when you cry.
Sunshine ; Friday, August 13, 2004
Tuesday, August 10, 2004
huilin, my best friend, icq me last nite!!! finally get to see her online..she told me she miss me and i miss her too!!!!! i hope i will get to see her tmr cos she will be around in jurong area. im tired again..
Sunshine ; Tuesday, August 10, 2004
Saw Cynthia, on my way to the canteen. Hahah she actually caught me sleeping on my brother’s bike, as usual she told me how dangerous it was and reminds me of the many times ming asked me not to do it. I really could not keep my eyes open cos the wind’s so strong!! Anyway, im renown for sleeping on the bike now.
Had the most spectacular weekend. Went to esplanade to catch a glimpse of the firworks. When I arrived at city hall, two hours before the event, it was already unbelievably packed. I almost could not find yanyan. I told her the place was so crowded simply cos I, the princess, was going to be there hahahah…
We waited for about an hour plus for the fireworks. Despite all the pushing, it was all worth it. We had quite a good view. I pity the children though, actually most of them were sitting around, probably since 5pm, only the late comers, like me and yanyan were standing throughout the entire event. When it was about 8pm, some of them stood up and the poor kids could not really see. The irony was, those who stood up were the taller ones. I was telling yanyan, we are shorties as compared to the rest of the crowd. She was so defensive, saying that I was the shortie and only me.
We stood for 2 hours just to catch a 1 min plus fireworks. It was so amazing and mesmerizing. There was this fairy-like gold dust firworks and I told yanyan “its so me!!” hahah..bringing out my princess identity again..ahhemm..
Anyway we were caught in a human traffic when we were leaving and again, I saw kids squatting around at one corner, waiting for the crowd to disperse. I wonder what all these parents were thinking, they should have carried their child or leave earlier or just do something to make them feel comfortable instead of just putting them in a corner.
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im back in hall now. did nothing during ysgoh's lecture. he wasnt giving any answers and ivy said he probably had the misconception that we are some PhD students, tellin us moe has issues and that we should question their decisions. i mean pls loh, we are just teachers, more often than not we do not have a choice as to what we want to do with our students. i asked my supervisor before, between rushing to complete the syllabus and taking our time to really guide students, which is more important? she said inevitably, we have to complete the syllabus and hopefully students will be taught values as well. my temasek principal mentioned that we should not short change our students during the sars period, we should still send them materials to do. i was wondering, how much do they really learn if they do not come to school?
many a times, we forgot that we are called not only to teach, but also to inculcate values and to provide inspirations, not just to mark books but also to correct their mistakes they made while growing up.
anyway, watched pan weibo's concert on saturday nite with ming, thanks to rencong. unfortunately i had to watch zhang shanwei as well. he cant dance and i really cant stand him. he was tryin to con some young girls, asking the audience if he should take off his top, whether he should kiss one of the fans, arghh..irritating. didnt really like his songs as well. however, PAN WEI BO SO CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahhah he can dance man, so smooth and so suave. so impressed by his dance moves.
it was national day yesterday. i saw fireworks again!!! hhaha this time round, ming was with me. we went to cosy bay which wasnt that cosy. food was ok, drinks damn expensive, server's attitude sucks. well, i guess great company and singapore idol made it all up. i saw alistair on tv!!! he went for singapore idol!! anyway he got slapped with awful comments from dick lee which i tot was fair since alistair didnt really treat it seriously as well.
wat a long blog..wanted to blog some more but i think i should just stop. im so tired now..
Sunshine ; Tuesday, August 10, 2004
Training was cancelled. I was bit pissed cos I was looking forward to training and it had to be cancelled. Anyway I passed a comment that it’s a waste of my time and luckily, wendy wasn’t here. Peili heard and she walked over to hug me. She told me that its not a waste of time at all, in fact we could go eat together. The thought of being with peili was very soothing so all my initial frustration went away.
Peijun, peili and me went to eat at 511, I ate the vermicelli which didn’t taste as good as before. We ordered stingray as well and peili was talking so much, as usual, dinner was very entertaining. Peili and all her animated movements made us laughed. Hahhaha..i insisted that she must use her phone to take a picture of us and we took abt 4 shots cos I wasn’t satisfied. I dun even look like myself. Anyway peijun left, peili and I decided to stay and talk more.
While peili was talking, I wasn’t really concentrating cos my mind was full of things that I wanted to tell her. I kept quiet and she knew something was wrong with me when she finally allowed me to speak. I knew I could tell her anything and everything. So I told her my thoughts.
Although I really want to tell peili everything, I stopped myself. I dunnoe why. Perhaps im afraid that she will say something that will upset me, something that I dun wish to listen to. Sigh….how practical we can be. When we hear comments that are pleasing to our ears, comments that are similar to our very own thoughts, we know we have support and we think we are right. However, when others’ comments differ from our views, we refuse to think that we could be wrong, instead, we turn a deaf ear and choose to believe that they are the ones who have an issue.
I knew what peili was going to say. I was asking for the obvious answer. I dunnoe what was my purpose of telling her. Perhaps I needed her to remind me the situation im in and what should be done. I didn’t feel very good after talking to her cos I know what I shd do but my heart doesn’t know what to do. Peili said I should have had enough already and it will never end if I dun put an end to it.
So many thoughts are running in my mind. So many things I wanna say. I dun know what to think. I dun know what to say.
Its Saturday. Im having a netball carnival tmr morning and ballet practice on the afternoon. Tons of tutorial to prepare. Im so tired…
Sunshine ; Tuesday, August 10, 2004
Friday, August 06, 2004
i know how appearance affects comments but i didnt know one's appearance could lead to another's dishonesty.
i was awake the whole night. i fell asleep only when the night faded and the brightness of another day consumed the dark. it was not my intention to lay awake, i was thinking of some things and probably because how active my brain was, i couldnt really sleep soundly. i stirred when there were small movements. maybe these actions were not meant for me to know, but i knew.
when lin and i had our friendship upset by some xiao ren, we realised that both of us didnt really mean it when we said "our friendship is very strong" and all the promises of being honest to each other. well, mainly she was the one who chose to believe in others rather than listening to me. when i told her the truth, she still chose the grey areas. its funny how we want to be mislead instead of just believing what's real.
somehow i know how God must have felt when men rejected Him. He is the word, the light and the truth. He knows everything yet we all think we could try to hide it from Him. im not saying im God, but there are things i knew and some think they can hide it from me. im wondering, how much courage one takes to tell lies than to own up their mistakes.
Sunshine ; Friday, August 06, 2004
Tuesday, August 03, 2004
God must have thought of me when He made you...
saw another bazzar!!! hhahaha...its in nie!!! and as usual i bought smthg; a beaded necklace. its selling at 5.90 but faith knew the girl so i gt it at 5 bucks instead hahahah thks faith!! i aiming for another pink necklace. hahha..i love bazzars!!!!
i wore my addidas sneakers this morning and it was barely 5 mins when i saw blood on my socks. yes, blisters again..arghh...i hate blisters...im such a good host for blisters..just cm grow on me.
had my poetry lecture today and my lecturer almost fell down hahaha...but he didnt land on the floor, if he does, i bet ill just laugh my head off!!! kc tan's lecture also very entertaining, i realised. he can tok a lot and has this weird accent when he wants to roll his tongue. but he speaks very well and can tell funny stories.
had ivp training just now and i almost died. i was running when i felt this tug all of a sudden. i was so in pain, and it wasnt something that i could tolerate, considering my high threshold of pain, so its really unbearable. it wasnt stitch nor do i knew what caused the pain. its just below my ribs and its twisting my guts off. the hall officer or some SAO guy with the dog, happened to walk his dog and saw me on my knees. he was so kind to stop and asked me if i was ok. i guess i shocked him cos my face was as pale as a sheet. for that moment, i was really scared cos i didnt know what happened and i was thinking what if i just drop dead??
thank God im fine.
had dinner with yanyan. went to long john and as usual, their attitude sucks. ill forgive them on the account that i was in a good mood. hhaha...we ate this super juicy corn which yanyan kept biting and most of the juice landed on me. lucky i was wearing my track top..ahhaha but we had a great time eating corns and fish and chicken. too bad that we couldnt tok more cos all the shops were closing and i thought it will be better that we go off earlier cos she had lesson for the entire day so she must be tired already. i enjoyed what we had.
weekend was tiring. both mentally and physically. i couldnt remember the steps to the only song we are dancing. funny when there is only one song, i cant remember the steps. but when there are 4 or 5 songs, i can just remember them. dunnoe wats gg on...probably i wasnt in a good mood to dance. when i was alone and on my way home from woodlands, my source of joy kept me alive. of not for all the msgs, i would have been drowned by the emptiness and boredom. thank you very much.
my sister prepared steamboat dinner on sunday nite. justin celebrated his birthday as well. im so glad that he is feeling so much better now. must be the grace of God.
im listening to very nice song now; When God made you. it reminds me of someone i appreciates so much..thank God for this creation.
Sunshine ; Tuesday, August 03, 2004
