I'm just different.
Friday, June 30, 2006
yes!! i received two presents today!! one from my china "lover" who "cohabitated" with me for 2 weeks and one from a student who went to Shenyang with us, the coolest thing is, he was not from my group and he actually got me a card, he is a very example of remembering other people for their works. Cool!! lame man, i just feel very happy that he gave me a card despite not being in my group.if that boy is from yappie's group then i better burn it, i mean, bury it somewhere, else she will be very heart broken!! i can feel that we are very warm to the new teacher who came, well, at least i gave her some niceties and briefly told her what's going to happen, how come i didnt get such welcome when i first came? cos im not "white" enough? cos i dont have big pink hairbands? well, at least i have small ones right? i think its very kind of us to welcome her, rather than give her the cold treatment that we, the stale teachers, got last few years. i think we are excellent people!! keep it up!!God says,"walk with the wise and you will be wise." thank God i have wise friends and one day, i will be Wiser!commit to teach lower primary for 3-4 years? wah..thats a long time leh, how to teach upper primary like that? isnt it good to rotate the teachers then we can sharpen our teaching skills ma. perhaps its good for me since SIM will take me abt 4 years to complete. i think dont think so much first, shall trust God to lead." its a happy day and i thank God for..." i forgot the lyrics..opps..
Sunshine ; Friday, June 30, 2006
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
im very happy today because i had two successful lessons n the afternoon! i taught two classes how to read freely and they managed to do it. afterwhich i got them to read to their partners and comment on their readings, the results were commendable. they were able to make simple comments and they accepted others' coments graciously. their reading as a class did improve after several rounds of practices. praise God!! i adopted a new strategy, i complimented good behaviour instead of rebuking lousy ones, the good ones worked even harder to achieve the next compliment and the lousy ones tried to improve on their behaviour. wah..kill two birds with one stone.aiyah i got to go now. shall blog another time. once again, im a happy lady today!!!
Sunshine ; Wednesday, June 28, 2006
Friday, June 23, 2006
i marked 150 books on monday and then 60 books on tuesday, see, this how fast i can mark or rather, this is my marking capacity. this is the last week of the sch holidays and i prob had rested 4 days out of it. anyhow, thank God i managed to clear my work review and the books that i had to mark.i attended two course this week and this is my reflection:course Aduration: 3 hourscourse rating: good, i learnt something new. like how soft skills could be broken down into social awareness, self awareness and what it lead to. i though it help me to organise my thoughts, the next time i talk to someone else. on the flip side, not everyone is able to run through this whole process before shooting off, some people just dont have social awareness or rather self awareness.course Bduration: 8 hours 15 minscourse rating: poor. again i learnt paper knowledge, i really want to apply but where is the "white space" for me? i already thought of getting Lh to come and watch my lesson but we are all teaching at the same time, even if there is a free time slot, i also feel very paiseh to ask her leh. like taking her free time away. anyway, duration was too long and it was not that engaging. i was actually a bit shocked by the reactions of the trainer, she didnt allow us to talk even if we already finished our stuff. she wanted us to go through the thinking process rigorously. i was just too tempted to doodle on my notebook and used it to talk to cuiqi. i just couldnt sit through 8 hours without talking and moving around.the spoiler came when we were asked to go to groups and i was very against it, because i know once we get there, nothing will be done within 30 minutes, they will just talk among themselves and then arrow people to present. simply nothing gets done. i tried sitting back and allow chances for others to participate but clearly, G was the only one who was talking sense and apparantly, no one seems to get the instructions. it came to a point of time when i could not take it anymore, i just opened my mouth and wrote somethings down. well whatever that i have proposed may not be perfect, at least i got something useful going, rather than some peole who are not just rude but also seemingly not profficient in anything else except food. she will be the root of my sin, i will be considered disrespectful, rude, petty just because she doesnt say "thank you", "please", "excuse me" and does not have the decency to ask for permission when taking your things and not bothered to explain to you later.phew....i let off steam..oh God, please teach me how to have social awareness or control myself cos i can anticipate that one day, when i will blow my top at her.again, we are open to more and more critics that our local teachers are not profficient enough such that other expats need to be employed to teach standard english. did we not meet the examination standards? can the students understand their accent? why dont just consider retraining our own teachers? well, they prob have addressed all these concerns, whether or not this move will really be implemented, we shall see. on a personal note, i just feel that educators will be more pressured.huilin shook me by my shoulders and demanded that i go for second opinion. that was before cuiqi coming before me and amplified my condition in the whole staff room and also linhui who asked me if she could scold me for my decision. i really thank God for giving me friends who care for me. i just still need time, for what, i still dont know. maybe for the hope that one day, God will answer my prayer or rather the prayer of my friends, so they will know that my God is a real God and a healing God, maybe i still need time to accept what was told to me. now i understand why people need so much time to muster the courage to accept treatment. i know God works in different ways, God will provide wisdom to the doctors who will be supervising me. i know everything that some people will say to me. i just want to be given some time. i just dont want to go through what is unnecessary.
Sunshine ; Friday, June 23, 2006
Thursday, June 15, 2006
i am safely back in spore..for a week already after spending 14 days in China with some 20 strangers. thank God the students were safe throughout the 2 weeks, no one got murdered by their own roomies. phew..
i am a well trained super nanny now. i learnt, not only to take care of myself but also other people's children, i had no peace sleeping, no peace eating, no peace standing and no peace sitting, the only serenity i found was when we were flying back to spore. i totally shut off, i just want to watch movies and eat and sleep.
it is not easy to find out how much sleep i was deprived of by the number of hours i sleep now. i sleep an average of 10 hours now, every single day and still tired after that.
it was an eye opener, how toilets could function without water, how students can scream their reading and thought that they are just "reading". i also learnt the most formidable move, thou shalt not speak or do at the wrong timing. as my wise friend always says, timing is very important.
the things there are much cheaper than anything in bangkok, especially the stationary, its so cheap, i thought i bought a lot my roomie beat me to it, the only thing i beat her is how cheap my chidren's day presents are..hahaha..a part of me hope that i will be able to go there and purchase all the books and stationary again but a part of me wants to remain in spore next yea. cant always be me staying in china for 2 weeks every single year rite?i think the months ahead will very challenging for me. SIM, teaching and the many things im doing..please grant me directions and strength, God
Sunshine ; Thursday, June 15, 2006