Wednesday, June 25, 2008
i can say that the offer came at the right moment..just as i was thking of gg on NPL next year, she said that when she prayed for the dept, my name came up to her and i wonder if god has used someone else to speak to me instead. coincidentally no 1 also offered me the same position.sonewhere deep down in my heart, i know there is some kind of excitement which im trying to suppress, for what reason, i dunno. so far, after speaking to a few close friends, all of them showed support and i really appreciate them a lot..thks friends, your support really mean a lot to me esp twinnie. haven really seen kei around much, hoping to catch her and tell her this.really need to confess my excitement that im sort of looking forward to taking a big step into my development and i know there will be a lot to learn and my fear is whether i will be able to handle it, joc is right, if it is God's will, his grace is sufficient for me.i prayed for His confirmation to come..prob it came oredi.as i watched her saying grace for her food, i was more filled with unbelief and disgust than joy...i know its wrong but i just dont feel positive abt it at all, its like she doesnt deserve it..of cos, God's love extends to all those who dont deserve it..like me..ok let god be god. shall not judge abt it.met ivy and faith and got my new coach wristlet!! awww..so lovely and it was great to meet up with the girls. just love all the chatting and updating and feeling good abt being part of each others' lives.ok back to work for now!!
Sunshine ; Wednesday, June 25, 2008
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
extremely sian sian sian...marking in school now altho i rather go home and read my book..arghh...plans plans plans!!! what to do? where to go? going crazy just thking abt my future and of all pple, i have to see her right in her face after lunch..totally spoils my day and hate her fake friendly voice.had a great trip with twinnie and am really considering startin my own "shop" haha..filled up my suitcase and bought so many mister donuts back! miss the tom yum and the cheap living there..everythg in sg is so expensive!hmm aiming for the agnes b tote bag..see how next month :)just a random entry..buzzing off to mark !
Sunshine ; Tuesday, June 17, 2008
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
the wedding last weekend was fun-filled and went on so smoothly despite the slight pouring but it didnt dampened our spirits at all. everything was so well planned and it was really the day the bride and groom could just get married and not worry abt anythg else. that didnt happen without the help of a very enthusiastic entourage and a bunch of helpful friends. caleb's brothers were really brothers..helping and clearing all the obstacles in every way and even neh was helping without being asked. no one could resist twinnie's sweet voice and we all know desmond and her did a great job!i had fun that night and felt very honoured to part of such a blissful wedding..i know the marriage will be even greater than this. :)ben thking abt career directions...what do i really want to do? do i want live up to others' expectations or do what i want to do? if im unhappy then what is the reason? i just checked my mail and i know just the sight of her name irks me. does she really think that she is the boss or what? telling pple that "oh this is just smthg i do to pass time and earn extra cash, i can do without this job cos i have a really rich husband" then why stay here and grab everythg? as usual, cos she is the supposedly supervising the com and i am one of the level reps and she can selectively chooses her members to pass info and just conveniently leave me out. just what does she have to be nominated to be the hod? its like a total joke to me.i know its not worth it to leave cos of someone who doesnt deserve my attention at all but simply cant stand the so full of herself look. suppose to go back to mark but just too lazy to do that..getting very used to 9 hours of slp and taking afternoon naps and just read leisurely and do my thgs at my own pace. a lot of stuff waiting to be done but just dont feel lk doing them at all..is that a sign?shd the sch's needs be of my concern?i blame it on the weather for my restful attitude..its been cooling and i just want to spend the time at home, packing my own things and reading my book. currently reading "tiger's child" by torey hayden, also author of "one child" which opened my eyes to a world where there are suffering children and its the same world we all live in. maybe its this book that draws my attention to children and therefore brought me to where i am now. in a class of forty, there are so many different personalities and so many needs yet the society im in, advocates that i propel these children at the same speed and to a common destination-to complete the syllabus. while i am proud of where i live, where democracy stands and where every child should be given an opportunity to learn in school, my heart goes out to those who have fallen short of the class standards cos of complicated family backgrounds and learning difficulties. more often than not, they are just given more attention, in hope that they will somehow spell better, complete their homework and improve in their grades. hw does putting everyone with the same or worse, different learning difficulties learn at the same speed and understanding?sometimes i cant help but give the credit to the tutor at home, cos i know the amt of time and attention i give to my kids are simply not good enough. maybe i wanna leave knowing that i cant really make a difference in their lives..perhaps i shd make one in mine. yes i want the recognition and reward but yah, kei is right, i need to look beyond that and do i relly want to part of the rat race as quoted by neh. look out for open doors..love this phrase in the book im reading, "his otherness she understood perfectly"off to bangkok with twinnie!!
Sunshine ; Wednesday, June 11, 2008
Tuesday, June 03, 2008
i bought my first monogram vernis and i love it!! its unique and classy..to me that is..ahaha i cant believe it i just bought it just like that! i have to attribute it to love at first sight! its so pretty that i cant bear to use it.after stepping into LV, i tell myself, there is nowhere else i cant step into anymore...ahah it was quite crowded and i thought it was some occasion! wah..people are really very financially empowered now.the next bag will prob tk one more year..and its 4-figure. well..its not that i am materialistic but its just smthg that i really adore and i am not just a label-carrier, i just buy the thgs that i like!quote coco chanel, a lady should be two things, classy and fabulous.
Sunshine ; Tuesday, June 03, 2008
Sunday, June 01, 2008
feels extremely great to be back in sg, in the arms of someone you love and surrounded by the pple you love and love you too..the sg air fills my lungs with freshness and it reminded me of the deep breaths i took at lower pierce..ahhh..dont need to wake up with filthy nose which was clogged with polluted air.docked myself on my bed for 8 hours straight after i touched down and woke up to have dinner at 5pm then tried to adjust to life but was down with headache soon after, guess it was the crowd and jet lag.went home to unpack and then rested after watching tv..ahh..what a perfect resting place.woke up to a new morning but had patches of dry skin appearing on parts of my body, extremely upset cos its itchy and patchy and i wonder if it will spread.had sushi for lunch and headed to kallang for netball but it rained so heavily that the game was postponed, saw miss irene there and she looked great!went back home and slpt then proceeded to watch SATC with nn. it was like watching 10 episodes at one go. i wonder if the audience knew the background story, the stuggle between big and carrie, the challenge that charlotte is facing with her infertility, the "love-me" more samantha and the marriage between steve and miranda.oh i love miranda!! she is always so sceptical but always love her friends so much and i love charlotte too. besides having the same name as my future daughter, she is so kind hearted and so sweeeeeeeeeet. anyway, i was saying, yah do the pple know whats gg on in the movie? the guy beside me was almost dead until he stood up and left after the show, he was totally immobilised. went for mac breakfast and splurged at vivo aka fav shopping place for now. bought dress, tops, accessories and ate at bakerzin all myself but it was a great meal, i had tomato puree soup, seafood pasta completed with choco souffle!it was a well rested wkend...here's whats next..- clean my fan
- clean mice's cages
- prepare for kei's wedding
- go to sis place to teach
- go for kei's wedding rehearsal on thurs
- collect bridesmaid's gown on fri
- go for grooming on fri
- decide if i wanna book in at hollywood's secret for sunday's wedding dinner
- squeeze time for facial
- slp more..
ok this is only for the coming week.
feel so bad that i cant dance for the whole of june..cos so many weddings to help out! :( hope charisa unstds.
Sunshine ; Sunday, June 01, 2008
