Tuesday, November 23, 2004
had a game at kallang and all of us were grasping for breath while making all the sprints on court. i must say i had a great time running although it was undeniable that i could have had better performance. it was very encouraging to see everyone trying so hard and having yeeleen and kailing around really boosted our morale. funny thing was jiaolian was umpiring our game, each time i made a lousy pass, ill just look away..worried that he might just throw a glaring stare at me. anyhow, it was all in all, a good start for me. at least i could play for 3 whole quarters and not die on court.
i guess these 6 weeks of holidays are packed with netball games; off season league, inter hall and inter school games, other inter hall games and trainings and of course, ballet practices as well. not forgetting to read!! holidays are the only time i can do my reading, i got trini to lend me Memoirs of a Geisha so i dont have to buy hahha...i was so tempted to buy after i saw the book at Times but i told myself i got 2 more books to read so i passed that temptation. only managed to borrow 2 Danielle Steel's books..hmm..hope to borrow more before sch term resumes.
i saw Sex and the City's vcds on my table and i was like jumping..hahha finally i could lay my hands on them!! its just so cool to have holidays..im doing all the things that i like without feeling any pressure and im spending time with people i love without feeling the pressure of time as well...
my impeccably manicured nails were cut and scratched...sigh..*dollar signs flying*
Sunshine ; Tuesday, November 23, 2004
Tuesday, November 16, 2004
singing mks me happy..
for the first time ever..I WENT SINGING with my girlfriends. wah..i am SO IMPRESSED!! all of them sang so well, ivy's singing is so sweet, ah yve's singing will leave you breathless, faith's like a star and yan yan...my fav yan yan's powerful vocals rocked the whole building..simple a bliss to listen to all the angels. its so much fun..
anyway exams OVER!! phew...what a stressful sem..though many obstacles have come and are now gone, i have gained more knowledge and appreciate what God has put me through and thank God for pulling me through.
ok..pls send me any south park cartoons if u happen to have and all nice songs and gd movies. im dancing this week..what a blessing!!
Sunshine ; Tuesday, November 16, 2004
Tuesday, November 09, 2004
a prayer that saw tears welling in my eyes..
"The Lord is clse to the brokenhearted and saves thse who are crushed in spirit" (Psalm 34:18)i jus wana claim tis line and ask for His healing hands and presence upon u....
For He will bring us through the dark
For He will restore our vision
For He will show us the goodness of His plans for us...
Father, i trust in ur promise that u will never leave anyone behind.... and i trust that u will never leave her behind....like i never did.... For u said, "I m cming to u" (John 14:18), dn leave her...bt go to her wif ur strong, yet gentle arms..... continue to reveal to her... and let her receive all your luv.....I pray for her good health,
a good sleep,
a good mind to study,
and 4 good meals a day...
and most importantly for her to b happy... always....In Jesus glorious name, i pray..... amen.....
Sunshine ; Tuesday, November 09, 2004
Saturday, November 06, 2004
just some thoughts..
i didnt sleep until 7am this morning. i cant seemed to stop the thoughts that flowed into my mind, the night before. i cant helped but think that i ought to be blamed for everything bad that happened. why didnt it crossed their minds that i will be upset as well then who do i push all these negative feelings to?
i hate to feel guilty..especially when someone said something to make me feel guilty...sometimes its just so pressurising to love someone, your friend, your partner or whoever. its so contradicting, instead of happiness, you gain more pain..wat an irony.
i always think that a relationship with someone is a trade off of what you have now. you lose personal space, you lose time with your family and friends, you lose yourself just to perform up to someone's expectations, you give up what you always like to do. so this is what i do, i refuse to give up anything for anyone, i refuse to spend lesser time with my family, i still rush to my friends who need me, i still crave for personal space.
am i striking a balance or should i just need to be left alone?
Sunshine ; Saturday, November 06, 2004
Wednesday, November 03, 2004
will you love me, the way i am..
Don't you ever wish you were someone else
You were meant to be the way you are exactly
Don't you ever say you don't like the way you are
When you learn to love yourself you're better off by far
And I hope you always stay the same
'Cause there's nothin 'bout you I would change
I think that you could be whatever you wanted to be
If you could realize all the dreams you have inside
Don't be afraid if you got somethin to say
Just open up your heart and let it show you the way
Don't you ever wish you were someone else
You were meant to be the way you are exactly
Don't you ever say you don't like the way you are
When you learn to love yourself you're better off by far
And I hope you always stay the same
'Cause there's nothin 'bout you I would change
Beleive in yourself reach down inside
The love you find will set you free
Believe in yourself you will come alive
Have faith in what you do you'll make it through
ohhh whoa whoa hey
Don't you ever wish you were someone else
You were meant to be the way you are exactly
Don't you ever say you don't like the way you are
When you learn to love yourself you're better off by far
And I hope you always stay the same
'Cause there's nothin 'bout you I would change
No there's nothin 'bout you I would change
Sunshine ; Wednesday, November 03, 2004
