I'm just different.

Wednesday, November 29, 2006

i had a safe trip to taipei and back to spore, i din have any stomach upset after eating food from the street hawkers..God is so good to me.

i bought 10 pieces of clothings, including shorts, skirts, tops. compared to the usual bangkok trip, i think i under-shopped in taipei. however, im rather pleased with myself that i bought 2 pairs of heels and 1 pair of pumps whcih are relatively cheap. i also got 2 cute bags, 4 pairs of earrings, 4 hair clips and thats all...

im amazed at how civilised the taiwanese are!! everyone just move to their right when they take the escalator, the queue to board the train, they dont litter their streets though there is barely any litter bin around, i didnt see any cockroaches at all!! the people there are so amiable~

shopping there almost killed me!! i walked and walked and my back was aching like mad, it felt like it was going to break anytime but still, i managed to come back in one piece. now i so look forward to another batam trip cos i really hope i can relax there!! i really hope so though i doubt so since more people are in and i dont know how to ensure that everyone can accomodate everyone. i feel so bad towards ivy, faith and yve cos they didnt expect so many of my friends are coming..im also amazed at the numbers now!! i really hope everyone can just be friendly towards each other and just have fun...else i will feel like shit after the trip.

i want a bangkok trip and a cameron highlands trip next year!! the former to stock up * hmmm..how to stock up my oredi-bursting wardrobe??* the latter to relax, i think the only way to truly recharge, is to go somewhere there is nothing to do but relax..

another interesting conversation i had..

person : so what will you do if we see you?
me : i will say "hi"
person : what if he introduces you?
me thinking *so what do you want me to do* : ok...then i just smile and walk away loh..
person excitedly says : OK! OK! then we just smile and then walk away ok..
me *stunned : ok..

my thoughts after the conversation.. why would i have to do that? just becos you cant handle whatever you have to handle? why am i in this? am i supposed to do this?

things do not just happen just cause it was meant to be, this is just a convenient way to shirk all responsibilities, things happened the way it is becos you allowed it to. it is not what happened that really matters, it is how you make them feel that is irreversible..

i told myself that i can just go on like that, the truth is, can i? can i really just ignore what has happened? and pretend that i dont care?

i went to the science centre today and saw how minute the organ, that stirs emotions in us, is. it so small as compared to the parts of the brain that are responsible for more major functions!! though its such a small organ yet it constitutes such a large part of us. we make decisions based on our emotions, decisions that are sometimes life threatening and it is just this small part of the brain that is responsible for almost everything in our lives.

i know what im saying and i also dont know what im saying...

my wish is still the same...i want to be happie in nov and dec..

Sunshine ; Wednesday, November 29, 2006

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

when we first met, i kept lookin at you, becos i was afraid you will go out of my sightwhen we held hands,
i kept holding on to you, becos i was afraid you will leave me and i want to hold you tight
when we had a conversation, i kept talking to you, becos i was afraid you will not remember my voice one day
when i kept tellin you, "i love you", its becos i was afraid i might not have another chance to say
i left becos i did not see myself in your eyes
becos you let go my hand before it was time
i left becos you did not remember my voice in your mind
becos someone else had said "please be mine"...

*************************************** i posted this in may 2004...i like it !! ************************

Sunshine ; Wednesday, November 22, 2006

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

i went for netball!!! and yes, it rained again!!! oh my, each time i could go for netball training, it will never fail to rain and it was not just raining, it was POURING like mad, as if a typhoon was coming when we were on the AYE. when we arrived at the court, the rain stopped and we all changed into our shoes just before flashes of lightening came and we were told that there will be a postpone of game and i was so sad!!!! i endured the rain and now the stupid lightening had to spoil my game?? but thank God, someone found an indoor court and we changed from sandals to shoes to sandals then to shoes again, so that we continue with our friendly game. YES!! finally i can play!!

i played a quarter of WD and C and umpired two quarters. i felt so good after the run though it made me extremey breathless. i fall twice, once got tripped by opponent, the another by my own team mate..hahaha so funny, dawn and i were going to intercept the same ball and we bumped onto each other in mid air so hard that it sent us flying in opposite directions and she slide on the floor for a while when she landed, as for me, after i landed on the ground, my chest was so painful that i could not run for a few moment. and the best part was, we were called for contact when we didnt even touch the opponent. but the whole scene was so funny...though we lost by 3 or 4 goals, i had fun and i think everyone played well. cool..

when someone close to you makes you feel detached from another person you love, what does it mean? when your friend makes you feel that they are better off without you, what does it mean?
when you feel that the person you love doesnt really love you that much, what does it mean?
when you feel upset that you are not part of the person anymore, what does it mean?
when the person you care so much about, makes you upset, what does it mean?
when your friend makes you feel so left out, what does it mean?

when is the time to stop asking why?
when is the time to let go?
when is the time to start afresh?

the euphoria of love...or the phobia of love?

Sunshine ; Tuesday, November 21, 2006

Friday, November 17, 2006

Nah Nah

****** Actually didn't really get a chance to know her last year. We are sitting at different levels. Despite being in the same session, we got no chance to talk to each other. 1st impression was WOW! This lady super DAO!! She got this " YOU don't mess around with me!!!" look. Scary. Hahaha. =p Even during dept meetings, she is always sitting with Corine. She is like a stranger to me in 2005. =p Well lucky for me, I got to know her better in 2006. She is seated behind me, seperated by a walkway. We are in the same session. I really got to know her better this year. Lunch together. Chit chat. Dinners @ times. Shopping @ times. MSN @ times. Blogging. To me, she is a very confident lady. She know what she wants. She is very certain about herself and what she does. I admire her character. She is very bubbly but can be rather moody at times hor? Hee. =p Worked with her on PATIO, Lantern Night, Singing Competition.. I guess our working styles are pretty similar. But she can be VERY serious when she works. So serious till you can be really afraid to do the wrong things. Hahaha. =p But of course, she is willing to lend you a helping hand if you need it/ask for it. Don't know how to do it, you can simply ask her for advice. She will work with you to find the perfect solution to the problem. =) Thank you for all the little gifts. I felt so loved. Hee. =p We are going to Batam!! So happy and excited!! Hee. =p We will enjoy ourselves there! *******

i ripped this off huihui's blog so that i read it and feel so loved..hehhee... i love you, you love me, we are happy family....yay yay!!!

Sunshine ; Friday, November 17, 2006

Thursday, November 16, 2006

my christmas list...

ipod nano
watch
lanvin perfume
bracelet
coca treat
my polka dot dress, if only its retrievable..

speaking of which, i cant help feeling devastated when i saw the msg...what a mishap..i have not even worn the dress yet and its gone forever..sob sob x 1000000000

please pick one of the above and send me my christmas pressie, i also accept cash payment..* grins...

Sunshine ; Thursday, November 16, 2006

self entertainment while going bonkers...

my desperate attempt to complete all the notes...

FREEDOM!!! im done with TMAs and exams and all the mugging that im supposed to do!! yes!!! God is so good to me..

is my name really that common? just for today, i have recieved a call that was meant for Jane instead of me, Gina called me, "janet ah, where are you?"

me : ermm..in on my way to SIM?

gina : oh! i called the wrong janet!!! *giggles...

me : oh..its ok..byebye

then i got a msg that reads " hey girls, thks for helping!" from Ivy SHPS

me : must be wrong msg again..

were there so many janets in the drama centre today? how can anyone be me? !!!

ah...i still insist that there can only be one nahnah princess and that is me!!

anyway im in such a good mood that i just want to say i love all the people who have been praying for me for my exams...thks to cuiqi, huihui, ming, my bro and samuel..

Sunshine ; Thursday, November 16, 2006

Monday, November 13, 2006

my rand0m tots...

im having exams this week and i feel that im taking it rather lightly. i take abt a few hours to settle down and then half the time studying. though i am still able to recall the points but im really thinking if that will be enough for the 2.5 hours of paper? my greatest fear is how do i stretch my points to 1500 words in 45 mins??? uni exams...how on earth am i going to survive that for another 2 more years?

after i dedicated one post to huihui, she dedicated one to me too..i suggested that she write something for me so that i could know her better. now i know she likes blue and cinderella. **i think all girls have a princessy part in them..** anyway, i realise hui hui and i have something that we want to learn from each other. like she is super efficient worker and i dont thinki can work like her..she is lightening speed!! just the thought of seeing her in school makes me feel so much better..i aint no lesbian but i think God really blesses me with huihui as my friend whom i can work with. so huihui, sorry if sometimes i come across as too authoritative under work circumstances but i really love you so much!! hahhaa please get well soon..

i felt horrible last week when she cried cos i replaced her with another guy, though i didnt make any promises that she will definitely be chosen but i dont think that was the most important consideration. thank God that i have parents who are willing to teach me on these things which i have overlooked. ok now i must try to consider their feelings as well...instead of just being so focus on my task. i mean, thats the most important thing rite? its not what you do or say to others, its how you make them feel, thats most crucial.

i have been a frequent customer at mac's and this was the most interesting conversation i ever had..
server : hi !
me : hi! can i have an ice-cream cone?
server (pauses a while..) : ok...
server ( walks off then turn back) : just the cone?
me : .....i want the ice-cream as well...** what the..!!!

Sunshine ; Monday, November 13, 2006

Friday, November 03, 2006

didnt know that forming grps can be such fun...we talked abt everything under the sun, from tma questions to exams to HDBs to gossiping abt the "power puff" girls to victor's teban garden, to teaching to "me-not-eating-cheese' and all..

when vic was discussing our notes, i realised i was not able to concentrate for a moment..not cos im tired but im quite mesmerised by his voice..hahahah..i was listening to his voice instead of what he was talking abt..anyway he was so comical, i kept laughing...huiping also very entertaining...

when k said that she only did brief notes for blk 4, i thought she meant brief notes like our kind, at least a few sides, in the end when i saw 3 lines for a question, i was so tempted to say " wah thats really brief" but i think i beta nt make her feel awkward or rather make myself feel that way. but how can just ans one question only out of four leh? and then smmore only got 3 lines? i stayed up until 4am just to complete all the 4 questions that im supposed to do!

i watched guardian which is super duper nice and worth my time and $$..i saw muscular arms and kevin costner who was so charismatic in the show, first time i realised ashton kutcher was nt bad looking..must be the makeup.

now that the school exams are over, i really dread going to school..perhaps only to meet linhui for lunch...other than that, school is pretty boring..whats new..

come to think of it...recently school is nt that bad la, i mean just school itself sucks but the people there really make a difference to me.

smtimes i dont really like to talk to her, i realise that she likes to 'discuss' abt celeste and goh..i mean, ya la, talk abt it then over oredi loh...but i hear her almost over every single lunch, just getting us to talk abt the same 2 pple. maybe to draw closer ties? to be able to relate better? for a newbie, i think she tends to 'discuss' abt others too much..perhaps its my fault..i shared too much with her in the first place, fed her too much until she is addicted!!

huihui wants to know my future plans cos she commented that im a very "personal" person so i decided to dedicate the following to her...

my plans for the future..

for tmr, i intend to try to finish one bowl of noodles
i also intend to buy soya bean drinks if time allow
for saturday, im waiting for faith to date me out to study
for sunday, i got another lunch date with ex-HSH netball girls
for monday, im going for my long awaited medical appointmt then i will decide if i want to go get "cut up"
before that im meeting jean
ill be going for bible class on monday evening
i shall try to study on tues-fri
if i can finish revising, i intend to reward myself...with netball training on friday

as for next year..i want to maintain my weight
start a chinese class pub
be more organised
improve my planning
save $$
improve dance skills
count down barley teacher's leaving

ok hui hui, i know its not interesting at all...its just a lame post la..hahahahha

gosh..i miss huilin...peili, beekee, daniel and my bro..

Sunshine ; Friday, November 03, 2006