when we first met, i kept lookin at you, becos i was afraid you will go out of my sight
when we held hands, i kept holding on to you, becos i was afraid you will leave me and i want to hold you tight
when we had a conversation, i kept talking to you, becos i was afraid you will not remember my voice one day
when i kept tellin you, "i love you", its becos i was afraid i might not have another chance to say

i left becos i did not see myself in your eyes
becos you let go my hand before it was time
i left becos you did not remember my voice in your mind
becos someone else had said "please be mine"...

-------------------------------------------------------n.a.h.n.a.h-----------------------

Sunshine ; Friday, May 21, 2004


finally...jasmine trias is out!! hmm..feel bit sad for her tho but cos i still think that she took latoya's place so think she shd be out long time ago. she is gd, nevertheless, coming thus far

thks to beloved yan yan, managed to download south park which took abt an average of 45 mins to download!!! but its really farni..ill just laugh at wateva they say, to compensate for the 1 hour of downloading time it took...hahahhah

went swimmin in nie, felt good when the water just glides through my skin..i wanted to swim for a few more laps when i saw more and more guys approaching the pool, the uneasiness forced me to leave the pool..by the way, i left cos they all look like uncles..not some cute hunks..wateva..hahah..well if they look tanned, hunkier..prob i will stay for a few more laps..hahaha

poor yanyan wants to travel to boon lay..and meet me for macdonald's breakfast which i hv been craving for quite some time..i just love the hot cakes!!! yummy..but i shall not be so cruel and mk yan yan lose her beauty sleep and travel all the way to boon lay to hv breakfast with me. love u for that yan yan!!!


Sunshine ; Friday, May 21, 2004


watched American Idol and i still feel sorry for Latoya London who got booted out, wrongly!!! tho i think jasmine is sweet, her singing really pales in comparison to Latoya and she should be there, belting out tonite and not jasmine..well guess its really just abt popularity and not true talents. Diana did well i tot and so, its rather obvious that jasmine should pack up tmr. i hope fans remain as fans and not some blind patriots.

yanyan said she could cook??!! i dropped my jaw, in disbelief when she said she was going to prepare dinner for her entire family...hahah..but good for her la..all i can do is a simple dinner, like fried veg and rice..probably steam a fish which is already all done, like the sauce and garnishing etc and all i hv to do is to steam it. well i can prepare red rubies too!! not bad rite..haha..not forgettin my all time favourite pasta, sambal stingray and prawns..sigh...when one cant cook much..all she can do is brag abt the few dishes she can cook. yanyan!!! cook for me ok..i want smthg edible..and MOVE TO MY HALL LA!!! natalie is here and the precious, darling princess is here too!!

went to watch van helsing last nite and the show gets 3.5 cookies out of 5. wanted to give 4 cookies but the show was rather draggy at some point of time and certain details were left out..or maybe cos i didnt really get it..like since werewolves cld kill dracula, then why didnt helen's brother, who turned to one, kill dracula himself?? he appeared so helpless when he was a werewolf. wateva...the show's over..

lookin forward to weekend..first, im gg to ngee ann civic plaza for an afternoon of netball games and then to our yiping's bday celebration then go bk home for some rest and wake up on sunday for church service, afterwhich i shall run some errands and buy wateva is essential for BALI TRIP!!! yeah yeah...finally going..sunday is the day!!! but leaving at nite so pretty much nothg to do when i get to bali..anyhow..im glad im gg..in fact, esctatic abt it!!! guess wats on my mind...SHOPPING!!!!!! wat else..heh heh...



Sunshine ; Wednesday, May 19, 2004


Your True Nature by llScorpiusll
Username janet
The quality that most appeals to you: Creativity
In a survival situation, you: Run like hell
Your hidden talent is: Seeing the best in others
Your gift is: Sexual prowess
In groups, you: Feel uncomfortable
Your best quality is: Your sense of humour
Your weakness is: Your passivity

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Sunshine ; Monday, May 17, 2004


i tried the "Your True Nature" meme..rather satisfied with the results..hahha
Sunshine ; Monday, May 17, 2004


haven blogged for a week?? anyway, cant be blamed cos i have been well entertained..even when im in hall. courtesy of zhuohao who sent me a few gd shows like School of Rock and Butterfly Effect. i realised i have some interesting games in my lappie and i din even touch them b4, how can that be!!?? all thks to the busy studying schedule!!! NIE!!argh..

watched Troy last wkend..the show lasted for abt 3 hours and it was good!! for the first time, i felt that Orlando Bloom is such an irritating jerk!! especially when he shot Archilles, she oredi shouted NONO!!! apparently, he was so deaf!! thats on top of being a coward as well..Hector was the best, dashing looks and fights well..anyhow, its a nice show..not much of fighting actually

danced 5 songs yesterday and couldnt really remember the steps..tho they are relatively easy, 2 sets of steps only..but still mk some mistakes and i dun think anyone knows..except someone who is good in dancing n i told him how i cant remember the steps and he was staring at me throughout the enire performance, he spot my mistakes..bleah..
danced until my leotard was wet with perspiration. . did my favourite song yesterday..so felt rather satisfied..haha..


Sunshine ; Monday, May 17, 2004


If you see me walking the road with someone else

It's not because I like her company
Its because you're not brave enough to walk beside me.
If you hear me talking about her all the time
Its not because she pleases me
Its because you're too deaf to hear my heartbeat
If you feel me falling with someone new
Its not because I love her
Its because you're not there to catch me if I fall
If you feel lost, I too am nowhere
I too don't know where the road is going
Are we gonna cross each other's path
Or just completely turn around?
Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound
Don't let me walk with her
Its you I want to walk with
Don't let me talk of her
Its you I want to talk with
Don't let me fall for her
Its you I want to fall in love with.

When you thought I wasn't brave enough to walk beside you
I was behind you every step of the way
Still filled with awe because of the beauty that stands before me
When you thought I was too deaf to hear your heartbeat
I didn't want to assume anything
And I was afraid to lose our friendship
When you thought I wasn't there to catch you
It was because you never gave me the chance
You never reached the bottom, you've already grabbed a branch
If you feel like you are nowhere, I too am lost
I too don't know where the road is going
Are we just going to turn around,
Or are we gonna cross each other's path?
Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound?
Don't let me walk alone
I want to walk by your side
Don't let me talk of something else
Its you I want to talk with
Don't let me fall for someone else
Its you I want to fall in love with.


Sunshine ; Friday, May 07, 2004


thanks guys and babes!!!!

8 hours of cleaning, moving and packing and unpacking...phew...sitting in my new room now and just had dinner..at 1130pm..my new room has a smaller area and a smaller wardrobe..how dare they!!! cheat the princess!!! anyway i hate the layout of the new room mess up my stuff and i dunnoe where to put them...thank God its just a temp room

a million of thanks to Eugene who carried so many thgs for me, zhuohao who helped me carried my mop and a box of files and i know tts heavy!!! thanks thanks...not forgettin germ who slipped while carrying my stuff down the stairs...thank God she was fine, thanks babe!!! u r my ger yah...of cos there's guanquan who wanted to claim the chance to say im 38, he is STRONG!! he carried my fridge all the way from 43 level 5 to 41 level 4!!! wah.....i din realised he was that remarkably fit!!! hahahah..and adrian who offered to help, so sweeeeeeeeeeet ahhaha...and my yan yan!!! nice yanyan offered to come all the way down from wOODLANDS TO JURONG just to help me shift...awwwww..sucha lovely ger..and john who made my day cos he got me the song i wanted and he offered to lend a helpin hand too!!! i feel so blessed having all these pple ard to help me...else i will still be moving my stuff..

anyway i still gotta shift again but thats just next door..hahha..but i still need help i think..more hands mk the job faster yah..so yan yan!!! u still got chance to help hahahah..

my whole body is aching rite now..but i aint gg to slp early..cos i must reward myself!!! PLAY GAMES!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sunshine ; Thursday, May 06, 2004


you r my inspiration..

I saw my princess. She came,she walked by, she went past. She was on the other side of the road. I watch her back fade away. She was, just as would be, a dream.

------- u r a great friend to have ------

u know who u are and i just wanna thank u for being my friend, caring for me and i will always rem wat u did for me, esp the days when u waited whole nite..just to give me a lift back home..for all that u have done, a million thks would be an understatement...u will always be someone i will never forget..
Sunshine ; Tuesday, May 04, 2004


You are an Ephesians


Chances are you have made a couple of whopper mistakes in your life...cause its usually people like you who really understand their position in Christ. You know its not by might, not by power and certainly not through works, but only through the blood of Christ. That's all that is standing between you and the Father...and that's all you need. People find you generally more grace-filled than most. You are attractive to the Faith,and usually a bit on the non-traditional side.

which book of the Bible are you? http://quizilla.com/users/reflectedgrace/quizzes/

Sunshine ; Tuesday, May 04, 2004


starry starry!!!

LOOK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i have to admit that despite being an IT idiot, I DID A FANTABULOUS= Fantastic and Fabulous job with my BLOG!!!!!!!!!!!! ahahah...simply love it...of cos, not without the help of a sleepy head...he got all the colours i wanted and my stars!!!!!!! so 3 cheers for u...HUrray HuRRay HuRraY!!! but hey...u r worth more than 3 cheers yah!! i show off to Yanyan and she said " well done" ..like im her student huh!! but hahahah...thks ah..and yiping, study hard!! i got my blog done oredi..

anyway got an urge to post this..so read on

i type some chinese stuff here but realised i cant read it when its on my blog..i dunnoe why...but i wrote smthg abt human beings have a tendancy to self destruct and when they cant the blows in life, they will choose to destroy themselves.

i wrote this for my chinese literature assignment and tot it really mks sm sense.human beings do really like to self-destruct, like they smoke, knowin that it will definitely kill them but simply payin no attention to those "SMOKING KILLS" tags. i rem i was watching a show and tellin smone that " wat wun kill u only makes u stronger" well i meant it like when u fail in something, u will gain experience from it. and this person took up a pack of cigarettes and showed it to me, i was like " SMOKING DEF KILLS U!!! IT WUN MAKE U STRONGER" . he just took my words literally...well i know he did it on purpose but still, i felt like slapping him!!! everyone is smokin..and i keep tellin them to quit and it seems to me that im more concern abt their lives than them!! weird people...and its as if im askin them to do it for me when ultimately, it benefits them. sigh.....its like im forcing them to care more abt their health..do they really wanna shorten their lives????!!

alrite stop!!! im in a good mood...look at my unky face hahah ..forgot abt gg to the gym..after i started with my blog affair..hahah..opps..can i even sustain 15 mins of netball game??!! HOngying!!!! im a dead duck when the street netball competition comes!!!
Sunshine ; Monday, May 03, 2004


prayers..

almost cldnt find Hebrews chapt during service today!!! i was like, "New testament rite?" sigh....this is wat u get, when u drift away from the word of God...but i knew where Hebrews was..aft 5s of complete stun..( i wanted to say stunness, but since yan yan said just write complete stun, den ill just type la ) anyway, the sermon today was abt importance of prayers and i tot it was meant for me. i know the importance of prayer..well, at least i know its important to me..but it didnt strike me that prayers would provide for us, a powerful and peaceful life. i just know that prayers would provide for me needs..anyhow, i prayed for rambutan today...i know it will bring him thru..cos God hears..He always do...so if u are feelin incomplete today, just pray..

found my long lost best frend yati...i hope u see this...cos I REALLY MISS U!!!!!!!!!!!!!! we hv been frends since p3?? cos i din really tok to u when we were in p1 n p2..i din even knw u existed hahahaha....u have nt given me ur addy u know? we were supp to snail mail...but i think u FORGOT!!! hahah...im writing as if u will def see this huh??? but anyway i just wanna let u know i have nt left u behind...in some mouldy memory case...u r in my heart...awwwaww....

yeah!!! my beloved yan yan gg to watch A div finals w me...ahahah yanyan!!! i purposely post our outing so that u cant go back on ur word!!!!!!!!!!! ill tell the whole world if u dun go ahahahha..

anyway im back in hall...dun feel sad for me...ahah...im doin well for some reason...ahahh...but the tot of moving to 41...argh.....i wanna puke at the tot of it...okok i wanna go play game...gg to beat rambutan...ahahhah
Sunshine ; Monday, May 03, 2004