Thursday, October 23, 2008
went to buy a pillow and bedsheets yesterday then a sudden realisation that im going somewhere far surged yet again. so much so that i need to get extra pillow and bedsheets!feeling a bit lost these days, dont know what to do when im not wang laoshi anymore. dont know how to clear my table, how to pack my clothes, how to pack my luggage, dont know how to feel right now. its this period that i feel quite vacuumed now...esp so when i went shopping without mickey yesterday, i suddenly feel very lonely. imagine next time it wont be just a call away...maybe i shd just thk god that its only 2 months! not 2 years! thks to joy's and yihui's mums that i feel that i have somehow made some difference to their child's lives. i feel encouraged that they want me to tutor their kids. its a kind of affirmation.got a letter from twinnie this morning which warms my heart in this cold morning and i really thank god for such a twinnie as i wouldnt have survived without her support and encouragement, the meals she supplies me with, the love she gives me. whatever she has done for me is so much more than i have given. thks twinnie, altho im a bit sad that you wont be coming but its ok..maybe i wont cry so much then! thks for all you have done for me and i love you!
Sunshine ; Thursday, October 23, 2008
Saturday, October 18, 2008
2 more weeks and ill be flown to japan. im both excited and worried abt eveything, the packing, the adapting part, the training..can i really make it through?im beginning to think abt the delicacies ill miss here, the chicken rice, the laksa, the nasi padang, the steamboat and what nots...2 months confinement!! haven even started the packing yet which is absolutely jialart..dunno why, a part of me just doesnt want to start..its scary how much things u need. well i guess all these will be fruitful experience for me.heard from ceiling abt something i never though ill heard abt myself, was very upset when i heard that but not as bad as before. i told twinnie abt it and she was rite, she said we are not guilty of anything and yah its gone, she is gone and thats great. prob the lousiest part of my life was that and its gone!! yay!!ok need to be more mentally prepared and move my hands!
Sunshine ; Saturday, October 18, 2008
Monday, October 13, 2008
time has a special ability to just fly past without you noticing it..i have abt 2 more weeks in sch and 3 more weeks in sg before i fly off...yet to start clearing hence cant start packing yet. need to buy thgs and pack stuff that need to be shifted to new hse and to japan..aiyoh so many thgs to do. i can foresee that i will not pack my own stuff to be shifted over to new hse...hope it doesnt come true.hmmm..starting to wonder abt too many "what ifs" but my senses make me realise that i shd nt leave in the past or the maybes..should just more forward, knowing that i have done a good job and left a positive influence behind!i love being wang laoshi and will always be..
Sunshine ; Monday, October 13, 2008
Friday, October 03, 2008
love this picture..makes me feel free...
the in-conversation was fruitful for some of us but hear and eye opener for me. i just cant understand how pple can teach for so many years can utter such ridiculous stuff. no lsp? does he knows what is he talkin abt? lsp is not beneficial? u can only see the few students we have but do u understand the hard work we put in? how can u scrap lsp? how can u pretend that there arent no weak students at all? i look at how u teach ah, i cant imagine if u take my lsp class, i think they will get demoted to em3. not being judgemental here but i just think u need to use yr brains before you make such big statements.
ok neh drafted a timeline for me and i realised how little time i have..the packing alone shd be enuff to wipe me out. oh well..if god has ironed out eveything for me up to here, i think there shdnt be any prob. i just need to stay focused and do what i need to do. rem, my priority is the students, must not let them down.
i guess ill miss teaching, though my lsp burst my blood vessels but i can see that they are trying very hard, well at least for some of them and i love them a lot. i wish that whoever is teaching them next year will love them just as much or love them more and do the things that i wasnt able to do with them this year.
会有人舍不得我吗？其实自己也没为别人做些什么...i told neh that he is prob the only one cos only he feels that im impt to him. 有时候，不觉感到自己在别人的生命里是可有可无的，很痛心吧，但是能怎样呢？learn to let go...
went for dinner with twinnie, it seems such a long time that we had twinnie time and we had "big"meal hahahah and i love the chicken!! so nice..for once, twinnie ate fresh crunchy lettuce..woohooo..
must treasure the time i have with my loved ones..
Sunshine ; Friday, October 03, 2008
love this picture..makes me feel free...