Wednesday, August 25, 2004
i cried during class meeting. sent out an email to the class on monday, tellin them i want to step down. brought out veron's incident as well. i guess most of them misunderstood that this incident triggered my stepping down but i told them its not. anyway, i just started crying when told them i didnt expect such despise from our fellow classmates. seriously i didnt know what affected me that much..i think its becos i didnt enjoy having my intentions wronged. well i dun deny that some of us do talk a lot during lectures but i didnt think that the way veron approached the matter was right. two wrongs dont make one right. we dun deserve being insulted. veron emailed me lat nite and apologised and i think i understand what she needs frm us. at least she didnt mentioned anything mean, instead she said something nice.
anyway, i finally stepped down. received a few emails frm my classmates and really want to praise God for these people He put around me, at least they appreaciated what i have done.
drank some spoilt soya bean milk last nite, *pukes* super gross!!!!!! the milk actually turned brown already and it was so acidic and it bit my tongue...the smell was killing too man..yucks!!!!!!!!!!!!! thank God for keepin me alive still.
watched 13 going on 30. they found someone who really looks like jennifer garner. the ending is rather predictable and movie-goers'-preferred-ending. i thought ruffalo looks cute when he was 30 instead of 13. i cried at the last part cos it was so sad to see two people, who are so in love with each other, not spending their lives together. well, 3 .5 stars for the show, wanted to give just 3 but the funny characters they injected got the show extra 0.5.
i think at times, we really wish we could changed our lives somehow, or turn back time. more so when we said something or did something we regret so much, like saying something that hurts others' feelings. there are many times i wish i could have done something else but come to think of it, all that i have done, all that i have been through, raise me. if i have chosen any other routes, i might not be here now, living this life. and i love my life now. im doing all the things i love now, i dance, i serve God, i play netball, im in ivp, in avalanche, i eat many times a day, i have God in my life, i have my friends, i love my family. i have many blessings in my life.
we should count our blessings. i think its a blessing that i could wake up everyday, greetin God "good morning" and sleep at nite peacefully after sayin " goodnite" to God.
i found a song that brings tears not only in my eyes but in my heart too..reminds me that Jesus died for us cos of love, all becos of love. He was all alone, being crucified, like a rose trampled on the ground, crying in pain all becos He wants us to know He loves us. Thank you Lord, becos You died so that we might live. we are so unworthy.
As little children
We would dream of Christmas morn
Of all the gifts and toys
We knew we'd find
But we never realized
A baby born one blessed night
Gave us the greatest gift of our lives
We were the reason
That He gave His life
We were the reason
That He suffered and died
To a world that was lost
He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live
As the years went by
We learned more about gifts
The giving of ourselves
And what that means
On a dark and cloudy day
A man hung crying in the rain
All because of love, all because of love
I've finally found the reason for living
It's in giving every part of my heart to Him
In all that I do every word that I say
I'll be giving my all just for Him, for Him
He is my reason to live
Sunshine ; Wednesday, August 25, 2004
