Saturday, August 28, 2004
i just had training. started at 8am this morning and i thought im in this time cos i haven really recover and i was coughing like a dying ah mah. anyway my performance surprised me, as mentioned, i thought i wont be able to run and concentrate on the training but it went well. at least i didnt faint..ahahha...though i looked extremely pale during the runs.
played street netball or something similar lah, couldnt take the running at first and felt very breathless but i was very determined to press on, i think its in me, i will never give up on court. i hope
this spirit will bring me through everything im doing in life. i have God to thank, i prayed very hard before training, i asked God to show me the ways to be valuable player and not a liability in any sort. Thank God, weather was super good, i did not faint and i did not give up.
i didnt know i was that sick until i took the stupid cough syrup. i drank 10ml and i was barely awake for 8 hours yesterday. i slept for abt 16 hours!!!!! but anyway i think i just needed a rest. and im feeling beta today though i still feel that bit of drowsiness in me. i was so pissed with the cough syrup that i threw it away immediately after i came back. tasted like some detergent and made me super duper drowsy.
i feel very moody these days. i dunnoe why. i just feel like im thinking of a lot of things and i dunnoe how to express myself..perhaps for the first time, i dunnoe what shd i do to myself. i feel very pressured all around. studies, trainings....i like to commit to things and people but i realised that im also losing my personal space..maybe not really losing but its like an exchange, my time alone and spending time with others. i miss the times when i can just cycle to the beach and write my diary and cry alone. let the breeze blows my troubles away, let the waves wash away my tears, let the roaring of the sea drown my sorrows...
but i still love everyone ard me..
wats on next week, other than lessons proper:
- monday--ivp training, prepare for presentaion.
- tuesday--prepare for presentation.
- wednesday--presentation, study for test.
- thursday--ivp training, study for test.
- friday--avalanche training, study for test.
- saturday--ivp training camp, study for test.
- sunday--ivp training camp, study for test.
Sunshine ; Saturday, August 28, 2004
