I'm just different.
Friday, August 06, 2004
i know how appearance affects comments but i didnt know one's appearance could lead to another's dishonesty.
i was awake the whole night. i fell asleep only when the night faded and the brightness of another day consumed the dark. it was not my intention to lay awake, i was thinking of some things and probably because how active my brain was, i couldnt really sleep soundly. i stirred when there were small movements. maybe these actions were not meant for me to know, but i knew.
when lin and i had our friendship upset by some xiao ren, we realised that both of us didnt really mean it when we said "our friendship is very strong" and all the promises of being honest to each other. well, mainly she was the one who chose to believe in others rather than listening to me. when i told her the truth, she still chose the grey areas. its funny how we want to be mislead instead of just believing what's real.
somehow i know how God must have felt when men rejected Him. He is the word, the light and the truth. He knows everything yet we all think we could try to hide it from Him. im not saying im God, but there are things i knew and some think they can hide it from me. im wondering, how much courage one takes to tell lies than to own up their mistakes.
Sunshine ; Friday, August 06, 2004