I'm just different.
Friday, August 13, 2004
i spoke to faith. she said she actually knew the times when i was upset. well, i was la... for many times..but i think i need to get over it. i come to realise that people have their choices of close friends and friends who they just laugh, eat and drink with. anyway, i do not just treasure yve, in fact i find that i have grown closer to ivy too. just that yve is very sensitive to me. i treasure all 3 of you babes..
i guess when u treasure someone a lot, u tend to feel very hurt when he/she makes a careless remark or did something tactlessly. just like how i got very upset when huilin was very close to sophia and how she chose to believe yanli instead of me. when ming and i quarrelled, most of the times i will just start crying. when yanyan gets very upset, i could not smile too.
i think any other friends could just crack some silly jokes and laugh with me, ill just laugh too. but not everyday i will find someone whom i could share my worries with. not everyone is willing to take up your burden for you. not everyone feels upset when, in actual fact, you drove them up the wall initially.
its becos i love them. thats why i cry when they let me down, that is why i cry when we fight, that is why no other can satisfy when they are not around. that is why God died for us on the cross. becos He loves us.
i really dont mind i cant be the one who makes you laugh, i only wish to be the one who sits with you when you cry.
Sunshine ; Friday, August 13, 2004