Friday, September 17, 2004
rach and her mambo and us..
won the game with NUS and i felt so proud, once again we are now defending champions for the sixth time. it was fantanstic and everyone played well. our winning streak gave us more reasons to get ourselves high at mambo night. rach was the "highest" followed by wendy. stupid woman, rach was pulling my curls off my head and said she could give me the best perms. poor minjia, her ears were almost ripped off by rach.
i drank long island, 2 tequila shots and 2 glasses of vodlka lime. it was super crowded at phuture and the music sucks!! we went down to join rach instead at mambo, even xuanhan preferred mambo instead. patsy was watching over me and i thought it was very nice of her cos she was like moving me aside each time someone needs to cross my path. she was holdin onto me so that i wun fall or something. rach comment something abt us just now and i seriously dont think its true.
anyway i didnt sleep until early morning, my head was splitting so just couldnt get to sleep. first time ever i feel so helpless, i dunnoe what i could give, i dunnoe what i could say or what i could do. perhaps i know wat to say but i just dont dare to say it anymore....i used to think im a joy to have, but it seems like i bring more hurt than joy. i dun feel like smiling anymore, i dun feel like talking anymore..i just feel like being alone.
it scares me how much i could feel for someone until it feels like im losing myself..
"have you ever love somebody so much, it makes you cry
have you ever needed something so bad, you cant sleep at night
have you ever try to find the words but they dont come out right..
have you ever.."
Sunshine ; Friday, September 17, 2004
