Wednesday, September 01, 2004
the weather is very warm. just sittin in my room makes me feel very hot. lucky my room's ventilation is not bad. anyway just got back hall and i feel like sleeping already. i think warm weather makes you feel tired.
had my presentation this morning and i thought it well fine. maybe not very good but smooth i guess. poor ivy didnt managed to participate in the activity cos someone took her answer..the funniest thg was, steph coudnt find her answer too cos her answer to her question was sticked to her back..hahah..anyway, luckily the game went well. the tutor gave some comments i thought was constructive but maybe he overlooked some points. still , i think its beta to have feedback so that we know wat are our faults and how we could improve.
talked to faith abt God just now. i told her that sometimes i just talk to God without saying "amen" cos im like having a conversation with Him so no need to be so formal. i feel that i want to bring God closer to me, so im having a "friend-friend" relationship with my lao pa. i told faith that i once was lost but now am found, i believe there is a time for everyone to come to know God. i remembered the times i dread going to church, stop serving in my ministry and didnt even read my bible. i thought since im so sinful, might as well stop being a christian. however, deep within me, i know that there's no way i can turn God away in my life, He gave His life for me on the cavalry, there's no way i can deny His grace and how much God has done for me. i cant just tell anyone that "im not a christian". moreover, someone said that if i dont serve God, ill be a slave of the devil. it is tryin to bring me down, make me despise my true identity as God's child, and luring me to reject God. thus, after deciding that i rather be God's child and see His face in heaven than to be the devil's slave and serve him in hell. i went back to God and live my life now, happily ever after. so fairy tale..afterall im a princess..
Lord i pray, when there is darkness, let there be light. when there is fallacy, let there be truth, when we dont have the strength, let Your almighty power bring us through, when we are tired, walk with us. when there is disbelief, let loose the faith in us. may Your blood cover us from the crown of our head to the sole of our feet. amen
Sunshine ; Wednesday, September 01, 2004
