Monday, December 06, 2004
my life..
i had a lousy night. ate a lousy dinner at a lousy coffeeshop and watched a lousy show; Alexandra. how draggy and confusing can it gets..now i know he is a gay, looks quite cute though.
i feel like a full time sportswoman now..just had a week of netball, basketball and softball trainings and more to come. i have turned myself from a pink dollie princess to a dark indian maid. eversince the games started, i have been feeding myself at least 4 meals a day and may i stress that they are all main meals, i can eat 3 chicken wings plus serving of pasta and get hungry within the next half an hour? how hungry can i get? i myself, am amazed by my huge appetite.
sometimes i wonder what kind of love are we pursuing? selfish? selfless? is it just a kind of possession we want? is it just companionship we are looking for? corinthians says love is patient and love is kind..how much truth does it hold?
i saw someone who told me he loved me before but when i walked pass him, i was nothing but air, i didnt make an impact on him at all. where was the love he wanted me to feel? where was the friendship we wanted to have? bullshit right? im just a stranger to him..
i have been in hall for almost 2 years..even though i obviously know these people and they know me too, during hall trainings we behaved as if we have never seen each other in our lives before and they probably wont even appreciate anything from you. how depressing..
we are so realistic huh..if someone is of no value to us then we should just treat them like air that whizzes..we dont even allow our hearts to have enough room for them.
how then...is love kind?
Sunshine ; Monday, December 06, 2004
