Wednesday, January 12, 2005
the time has come...
i stepped into tutorial room 04, feeling uncomfortable. the room was not cold, somehow, i could still sensed the stillness and i was searching for the source. it wasnt long before i discovered a tall and lanky figure standing across the room, he was it, every little drop of coldness rained from him. the way he organised the classroom, the way he walked around and behind us, how he was towering over us or perhaps just me, he was unreachable and not a tinge of warmth could be found in him.
Dr Tan briefed us on our presentation and lucky me, my group is presenting next wednesday. he was stern. instructions were given clearly. thats it. no lines for us to cross at all. no nonsense at all.
now im wondering if i can still eat, giggle, laugh hilariously, steal looks at my handphone, dream, sleep, twirl my hair, drink, fidgit..etc etc...im bringing toothpicks to class..to hold my eyes..
its eerie..the thought of "laughterless" tutorials.
anyway, lingzhi's presentation today was very touching. i saw tears welling up in my eyes when she mentioned about not getting to see the one whom we miss every single day..i thought if him..does he know that i miss him a great deal? does he know that i care a lot for him? does he know that he said things that broke my heart? is he really doing fine now? when will he come back? does he miss me? will i ever see him again?
oh heavenly Father, You know my deepest thoughts, my greatest desires and all my worries and concerns. I pray that You send Your angels to guard him everyday and bring him home soon..and let him know i miss him and i love him.
Sunshine ; Wednesday, January 12, 2005
