Wednesday, March 23, 2005
too bothered to care, too tired to think, too lousy to hv it, too hungry for it tho..do i want it? can i hv it?title of this entry totally sums up my emotions now. probably someone do understand but it doesnt matter to me cos at times i dont even understand myself so i dont expect anyone to.just had my observation today and it didnt went as well as i tot. however the grades were better than i expected..expected to get a few Cs but thank God, there wasnt any. im thinking if im teaching to get all the good grades or teaching to benefit my students. would i be able to strike a balance? at the end of the day, even if i cleared my syllabus, did i benefit my students? when i attained my objectives, did the students achieved theirs? in a results driven environment, have i touched students' lives or rather, have i ruined their learning journey? should i teach my students that results are not everything? what is meritocracy? is it all about product only? have we forgotten the process? i flipped d papers these days and saw many ad on teaching. "how big is ur classroom?" the world vs the science lab. so talkinjg abt creativity huh? how much time am i given to teach? how much work am i required to complete? how many students are there in the class? how many students are problem free to the teachers? how many other things do i have to commit to in school?so tell me now, how big can my classroom get?is education just abt results and creativity? what abt the values? what abt the child's life and thinking? what abt listening to the small voices around us?cutting syllabuses vs losing the values of education...which is more important? completing the syllabuses vs providing a holistic education..which is taking over now?someone asked me: "why do u want to teach chinese?"me:"it has always been an ambition since young. there is a need to spread many interesting ways to learn chinese..tho i was taught the traditional method but i still love the subject. so i decided to share my passion."now im wondering how long would i be able to sustain this passion to teach within me. ..sigh..
Sunshine ; Wednesday, March 23, 2005
