I'm just different.
Monday, May 23, 2005
You do miracles so great...im so grateful to God for what He has done for me. He has brought my mum and bro into His kingdom, ivy to church, my grandma to church and restored beloved faith's hope in Him. now ivy and i are going to try charisa's cell group and i pray that God will lead us in choosing a cell group. i have received my posting and i thank God for it. somehow, when i read the posting to myself, i felt a sense of relief. i must say, distance is an issue for me since i dont have a driving liscense at all. i met up with beloved sq and had a sumptous buffet. everything went well but ended off with on a sad note. sq doesnt believe in God anymore. i recalled, she was the one who brought me closer to knowing the ways of God but now she has gone to an unreachable zone. well i can only pray for her, that she will rededicate her life to God.i thought of what she has in mind now, that we all choose to pin our hopes in a higher being, afterall, we could have done ourselves everything. what do we live for then? where do we go from here? in a matter of choice, i choose to think that God has been with me all this while, otherwise i would not have the extra breath to pray for my mum and those around me. i do have the power to think that everything and everyone is possible unless God is with me.if i do not have God in my life, i would have let the dark side of me consumed my total being. i would have done wrong things which to me, are just grey areas. i would have turned to someone who live day by day, doing things that only fulfil my physical needs. sometimes i do find myself a scary person, there is just another me, i feel, waiting to burst out..but i will not let that happen. i will be just me, God's princess.
Sunshine ; Monday, May 23, 2005