Monday, August 22, 2005
aft my drama on friday, i realised there are people around me who care so much abt me. i received messages from cuiqi, noeline, daniel (of cos), jane, janice and yew ling, basically teachers from my batch and even on saturday, some of them still bother to send me a message. then today, i saw a book placed on my table, its from janice. thanks guys, i love all of you. sorry i was too immersed drowning myself in such unbelief. thanks to all of you for showing me such love from God. thank you for reminding me that God still remembers me.hebrews 11:6 "without faith, it is impossible to please God because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him."
Sunshine ; Monday, August 22, 2005
Thursday, August 18, 2005
thank God for these two days..oral=no lessons=rest a bit and catch up with marking. really bit tough to get up on time to have breakfast..now i appreciate my 8-9 hr of slp. went home before 8 last night which was a pretty rare thing and it felt good that to go back home not thinking abgt unfinished work. i watched tv with my bro and i told him how it was funny to get stars, who wanted to be star but didnt shine, to judge others. "the real stars are too busy for this!" bro explained to me. anyhow they do have amazing work in their records and well done!there is a sudden feeling of lost and emptiness which i have been feeling for quite some time, spoke to barbra, daniel and melina who all shd make me feel better. i do credit them for making me feel better in some ways or another but i still cant shake off that kind of emptiness in me.really miss hall life recently, def not the miserable nie life, miss the IHG days, miss the days when i picked up softball, miss the supper eating days and the days when i get to spend time alone. miss the days when i could just walk over to look for someone to talk. though boring at times but there are good parts la.5/4 got better, at least still managed to control them, compared to daniel, im prob having a better job. im so in need of time..more time to guide these kids, teach them to see the better part of them. however there are also times i dont feel like seeing them at all since i could not do much at this point of time oredi. i just hate it that i have to teach and teach which is so boring and i have no time to do slides for them. but what can i do? these units are just so boring, i dont have the magic to transform everything to be so entertaining. miss everyone..saw my best friend the other day and she passed me my fav dark choc and jelly beans, the saddest part was, i dont feel like talking at all. just summarised everything for her. was so tired to explain everything. dont even have the motivation to do anything else. the happiest moment was prob choreographing the new dance for service. felt a great sense of satisfaction which i have not felt for long long time. i think fatigue has drowned all the other senses in me. waiting earnestly for the holidays to come..not the one week holiday which i prob cant get anything done..im waiting for the year end hols and of cos..my fav christmas season.
Sunshine ; Thursday, August 18, 2005
