Thursday, September 29, 2005
utterly disappointed and upset with some of the p2s. they just cant bother to remember what i have told them. what nonsense. always is an understatement, everytime! everyday! arghh...i cant stand them anymore. esp HH, he thinks he can just do whatever he wants, my foot!! sorry im really very exasperated.please dont show me face when im an innocent party. i just didnt know can, no one even bother to let me know so please, just turn ur face away from me, i mean do it the magnanimous way not the other way. i should not be blamed for this.what a lousy day.
Sunshine ; Thursday, September 29, 2005
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
praise the lord, JY was unusually well-behaved..which is a total understatement, he was AN ANGEL today!! many thanks to those who have prayed for me and God who made it happened. i believed that he has shown a side of him which many have not seen, including himself. JC was behaving well too, using his body language to tell me that he has understood what i have said. praise the Lord many many times.so many things to thank God for- the cooling breeze he never failed to bring in the evenings.
- the good shows im watching..hahha
- my chua for always praying for me.
- ivy and yve whom i met tis evening.
- for my best friend who is so understanding.
- barbra who is so encouraging.
- for the chance to lead in CG.
- the chance to serve.
- the family i have.
- the love i have.
i really look forward to serving in woodlands..but God i will be patient.
Sunshine ; Wednesday, September 28, 2005
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
this is the third time i received complaints with regards to my class and my favourites. sigh..when will they learn? when will they learn to be polite and show respect to the teachers? if they can respect me, then why cant they do it to the rest of them? i was taught not to tell the kids that im disappointed in them. why not? i did place hope in them, they did let me down so why cant i tell them the truth? sigh..i really have no idea how much more i can give to them. yes they are improving but still fall short of their potential. how can people be so full of themselves when they have nothing inside them? no character, no diligence, no respect for themselves and for others. it baffles me.sometimes i feel that i do not have any ounce of energy or patience to deal with them. the more the improve, the more i ask of them, the more upset i get.the fact that someone actually care that i care keeps me going. it really means a lot to me after what jane had told me abt mr act-cool cum act-suave. i hope he will really care and appreciate. i must tell him to be humble. must remember.i gave JC a big lecture today and i felt upset after that, so did he. i felt very sorry that i had to say that to him but i really think he brought shame to the team. dishonesty. i cant tolerate. how can he cheat? such a small piece of work. oh my god..he must know it. i hope he will change. God, please change his attitude.please strengthen me God.
Sunshine ; Tuesday, September 27, 2005
Thursday, September 08, 2005
now that im a teacher, i realised how much worth there would be in a handmade card from a child, or at least it meant so much to me.not that i despised the presents, i love them all and the fact that it floods my table..aahhaa..but i truely value a handmade card than anything else. if only i could be given a wish on teachers' day, my wish would be, give me more time with my class cos i really want to spend more time on them and with them. as some would have already knew, i really want to do more than just this. i can do better than just teach them the number of strokes of these characters.life is pretty uncertain for me, at least for the next five years. i cant imagine leaving where i am now, its like ill be so lonely suddenly. i guess it takes time to adjust.daniel said a true christian is someone who look to God when he realised the limits of his own strength. now i know why God puts me through tough times..so that i will totally give up my life to Him. "to live is Christ"use me to glorify you oh Lord.
Sunshine ; Thursday, September 08, 2005
