Wednesday, November 23, 2005
third day of meeting and it was slightly bearable..i sat thru the meeting yesterday and i could felt the tears welling in my eyes. i asked God why is it He posts me to a good school for my future but not for my emotionally? i asked God why am i so unhappy everyday? every day i sturggle with my feelings, if im unhappy means im unhappy with God's plans. i dont feel like i have any form of support in the department. i feel like a glass there, people just look through me.i knew i will get misunderstood one day and it happened. well how can you expect me to know everything in just a few months' time? i dunno whether i should shut myself in future or still ask when i dont know cos everyone's words cant be trusted totally. why God? why is it you have to show me all these? is it to wake me up? is it to let me know that no one is nice and kind? what must i do to pass the test?
Sunshine ; Wednesday, November 23, 2005
