Wednesday, January 25, 2006
and i thought it ended but every morning i wake up, trying to embrace a whole new day, i will cough my lungs out. it is now the most in thing to wake up with a sudden cough so that i can "shake" my body up. it didnt really help after i talked to funny andy and elfie, it seems like im questioning more and the more i feel empty handed..or maybe it did help..cos im prob the stupid idiot who is still drowning in it. i think its the lee hom song, i just dunno why i feel so sad after listening to the song..i think im dumb.anyway my cell group mates celebrated both trish's and my birthday, it was really a surprise cos i wanted to leave earlier but charisa stopped me. i felt so loved then. tonight there will be another celebration and it will be my fellow dancers aka my gracelight sisters celebrating for me. again, i didnt really want to go but camilla let the cat out of the bag and i was told to go else the gathering wouldnt make any sense. so sweeeet.if there is a cake tonight and i would have cut a cake for the third time oredi..i still remember the first time i cut my cake..anyway i really want to just snap out of it and gain some weight? im sick of people telling me how much weight i have lost till this date..n PLEASE!!! i so did not starve myself to lose weight, i just dont have appetite.
Sunshine ; Wednesday, January 25, 2006
