well, i guess i know the answers by now..i had obviously over-reacted but at that moment, i felt like i was totally let down. so to be fair, they were at fault first!! of cos i was not doing the right thing too.
why do people have ears and dont listen? have eyes yet are blind?
now that my lips are swelling due to the ulcers, i have to keep my mouth slightly open, to avoid friction between my big tooth and the ulcers. i have pouty lips now, plus my perpectually slightly opened lips, i look pretty sexy, according to bee bee.
now that im asked to oversee the project, i actually do feel troubled. i know my eagerness will perhaps lead to undesirable situations, at least for me. im not supposed to be the overall IC initially, it seems that im taking away the other people's credits. will there be anyone who feel this way? i asked hui today, she said it doesnt matter. this kind of support is really God's gift to me.
the truth is, it really doesnt matter at all? will anyone feel that im trying too hard to be competent?
after patio, i tried to tone down a bit so that other people will have their chances too now that i had mine. how should i do it in a more subtle manner?
sometimes i think, must i really change to adapt to the environment? will i be the one to influence people and even the environment or let them influence me?
i almost broke down at the doc's, am i really happy? or am i just trying to be?