I'm just different.

Sunday, December 31, 2006

im so excited over dinner!!!

heheh poser only la..

cheers!!!!

bodyguards

me and snacks!!!

Sunshine ; Sunday, December 31, 2006

Saturday, December 30, 2006

my random tots...

i watched curse of the golden flower. the whole show was laughable though it was meant to be a tragedy. seems like mr jay has improved in his acting. still , it was the immaculate gong li and chow yun fatt who stole the show right from the beginning. i think the palace looks more like a sleazy dorm than anything else. all the maids look like some soft porn stars.hhahahaha...
i watched ben stiller's the night at the musuem, it was a great show. it was funny and interesting to see how he tried to manage the wild animals and people of the past. though the show was a comedy, i managed to catch more than just laughs from the show. somehow, the show is telling me how people, especially your loved ones, can be so disheartened once you made them go through heart breaks after heart breaks.
i slept for 11 hours for the past 3 days.
as if having one person to lie to me is not enough, even mx has to lie to me too.
im not looking forward to school next year.
i dont know how to manage 43 periods, SIM, dance, ministry, exams, marking, meetings, plannings.
i cant wait for my bangkok trip, bintan trip and australia trip.
i cant wait to see yati and gordon.
i am so depressed now cos im having headache and cramps.
i want to have more chances to see u.
i dont understand why they have to lie to me. how can it be dumb to explain things? how silly it is to say that...why scared to tell the truth? if u know there is nothing wrong in the things you did?
why do i feel like i had enough of everything?
what shd i do about my friend in school? are we still friends? or am i just her colleague? sigh...im so tired just tryin to talk to her and ensuring that i have no other intentions.

thats all...

Sunshine ; Saturday, December 30, 2006

Saturday, December 23, 2006

things that i wanted to let them know..

hui hui

thk you for being so accomodating and thoughtful throughout the entire trip. things are always easier to when you are around. thank you for all your support in everything that i organised during the trip. love you so much!!!

shankar

thank you for helping me to take care of everyone, esp zakie and elmi who were not so well during the trip, and also breaking my troubles into smaller ones and even into nothing when you are around!!

zakie

thk God you were recovering on the 2nd day. thk you for joining us though you were oredi unwell. thks for being my play mate!! thk you for the song dedication i never knew until you told me..

cuiqi

sorry u missed all your beauty sleep throughout the sleep!! but it was so much fun having you around.

caleb

thks for coming along and agreeing to help in all the ways you could and being so accomodating to everyone. hope to have you around in our future trips!!

elmi

im still perplexed about what were you high on...but well..i agreed to let everything remain in batam..so thks for your entertainment and your help in translation!!

Sunshine ; Saturday, December 23, 2006

i have so many things to update, i prob could spent the next one hour just trying to recall the week i had. hmm..perhaps should update abt the batam trip first..

DAY 1 --Arrival Day
i barely slept thru the night for fear that i would be late and i had to wake zakie up too so i better dont sleep too much. i had 3 hours of non-quality sleep. did packing again then left to meet ivy at the control station. i kept thinking, " what if no one enjoys the trip? what if they find the place boring?" though i didnt say anythg but i had my mind full of thoughts and i was damn sleepy. however i was elated when everyone turned up for breakfast. even faith was early!! we almost boarded the wrong ferry!! hahha..there goes my tip!!

finally found the right ferry to board and we sat separately cos it was too crowded. everyone seemed sleepy, shankar and i talked and i realised that he might be around for long soon..i was so sad and shocked to hear that but i knew where he was coming from. im so gonna miss him!!

had lunch before we checked in..didnt manage to stay on the same floor but it was ok. the rooms were comfortable, as usual. zakie was unwell, he rested and got a bit better.

due to the rain, we proceeded with indoor games, played table tennis tho it almost became badminton when i played with the girls..hahah..such a wonderful feeling to see all four of us together again. i played pool tho i suck at it. not bad i tot, i got 2 balls in..haha i prefer table tennis.

went for massage which was extremely comfortable!! beats the first two times i had it. poor zakie didnt recover yet, we sent him to stupid doctor who didnt really know how to treat him. poor guy gt worse..

i was very worried for him, i was so praying that he will get better the 2nd day. everyone was tired..after playing heart attack and we slept.

Day 2 -- Zakie came alive!!
zakie got worse in the morning, i quickly called a doctor in. thank God she was more meticulous or rather more skilful in her treatment, she prescribed so many medicine and i was so worried zakie will take the wrong medicine again. he rested and i was reluctant to leave him alone in the room but i guess i have to take care of the rest as well.

i sent the girls off, feeling disappointed that they didnt have the chance to go for go-kart and seasports. they were very nice, they were amiable with the rest and didnt show any signs of discontentment at all.

zakie came down for lunch and he could open his eyes!! finally i could see his eyes and he ate!! i was so relieved but i felt that i was getting listless already. we went to the games room when i felt that i had run out of energy already. i slept on the couch until hui came to get me back to the room to rest. i had a good 3 hour nap but felt very bad that i was the only one who rested...

we went to the KTV where everyone was singing and enjoying themselves! there were clapping, dancing, eating and shouting!! and most importantly, zakie finally could enjoy himself! everyone sang so well...

we adjourned to the lounge outside for live band performance. the band was awsome, zakie went to sing with them too!! oh man, he is really a singer. elmi was gone long time ago and we didnt bother about him.

we played games throughout the night, zakie slapped my hand so hard that i got bruises but it was so funny that i kept tearing and laughing. and of cos my legendary sneezes kept everyone laughing.

we slpt for 2 hours before its time for breakfast.

Day 3 -- the sun came out!!
it was a bright and sunny morning!! we were exhilarated. we went for go-kart after breakfast.
i came in 2nd!!! shankar was the only one i didnt catch up cos i went into the grass patch when i was looking out for hui who "lang gah"..poor girl, got muddy and all.

we went to the pool!! finally!! i got them to try the slide which i was talking abt all the time and cuiqi almost drowned in the 0.7m pool..hahahahaa...we played water polo, volleyball, ball rally then we went up to wash up and prepared for the journey home.

everyone was tired but we had fun and that was what i wanted...

Sunshine ; Saturday, December 23, 2006

Friday, December 01, 2006

i was sort of hoping,
that you would come along,
like the answer to my prayer,
and the music to my song.

like the kind of thing that happens, at a special place and time,
that will change our lives forever,
like a fantasy of mine.

the fantasy was there before,
i ever knew your name,
and now that i have found you,
we will never be the same.

so, pardon, if i look at you,
forgive me if i stare,
at the fantasy i knew before,
i saw you standing there.

for i was always hoping,
that you would come along,
like the answer to my prayer,
and the music to my song.

*********love, you.******

Sunshine ; Friday, December 01, 2006

the beautiful tree that lai lai, regi and i decorated **i just put a few flowers on the tree**

i love seeing christmas tree and was elated when regi invited me to her place to decorate her christmas tree. it has always been my dream to have my very own christmas tree too and it has to be a white one so that i can finally be in a white christmas.

i love the season, the joy of celebrating something worth celebrating.

someone told me that christmas is losing its meaning cos everyone doesnt really know what they are celebrating. i told the person that christmas is about love and joy and if everyone believes in the christmas spirit and is happy celebrating it then it is already worth the celebration. what other season in this world do you see the whole world, almost, people regardless of races and beliefs, celebrating christmas? i guess the joy of it is just too overwhelming for everyone to resist..

i helped lai lai with her wedding cards after decorating the tree and im so glad that she is getting married to the person she loves and someone who loves her too. tho sometimes i feel like slapping her for being so mushy in front of us. she said that the process of planning for the wedding almost killed her and i could attest to the stress she had until she almost called off the wedding.

she said once it involves the families then its very tedious and stressful. why is it that getting married can be smthg so stressful and detestful at times? isnt the planning just for the couple? why should so many people get involved? who are the ones who are supposed to be happy abt it? why should the family members decide what you should wear, where you should hold your wedding, who you should invite, what you should eat, where you should live? i have 4 weddings to attend in dec alone. im very happy for the couple but i pity my pocket!!!

when i was at regi's place, half the time i was staring at my phone, until i decided to throw everything out of the window and concentrate on watching tv and helping lai lai with her wedding cards. i have so much feelings inside me until i dont even know why im feeling this way and i cant even differentiate my emotions.

somehow, seeing the msg brought peace for a few seconds before i decided to let go of it. i just want to resist whatever im feeling and hopefully i wont die of internal injuries.

Sunshine ; Friday, December 01, 2006