Saturday, February 17, 2007
my IQ levelme : "ming, i took test online and my IQ level is 118, is that high or low?"ming : "thats high..average is 100."me : " oh..it says that my pattern reading is not good..what does that mean?"ming : "....."me : "means i cant read patterns?"ming : " yah."the above conversation shows that I REALLY CANT READ PATTERNS..well i guess i know abt this. as i was trying my best to understand what is it abt patterns that i cant catch a ball then it daunt upon me that i just cant seem to get myself out of an impending predicament which is always the same or i always land myself into the same mess.i know im easily stressed out and i always do more things to stress myself out. i know i need discipline but i always allow myself to be out of the disciplined lifestyle. i know that im unahppy when i think abt certain things yet i just sink myself into the wallowing mood.my once-in-a-while words of wisdom a conversation over sms...me : "im very happy once i get to eat the food i like!"sk : "you are very easily contented huh..sigh..i wish im like you."me : " can wat..go eat with me la.."me with wise words : " sometimes being happy doesnt mean that you have to be extremely happy abt certain things, just be less upset abt some things la.."over dinner with hui hui and celeste, i realised that celeste seconded my words of wisdom by telling us that she is more happy this year cos she doesnt take things too hard anymore which i think its very wise of her. when we dont take things too hard then we will not fall to our death. i reall think that han is just out to put her down with those kind of snide remarks she makes in front other people abt celeste and the way she talks to her but well..since celeste is getting well with it then so be it.the things i must learn.i must learn not to comment to much or not to even comment when im not asked to.i must learn to accept people the way they are just like how the wonderful people around me accepted a wretch like me.i must learn to love my students instead of just teaching them.i must learn to care about my students' feelings.i must learn to forget what others have done to upset me.i must learn that people have the right to give me up for something better.i must learn to put others first.myrren's love for me.myrren :" laoshi, i want to follow you eh" for the 5th timeme : " why? " for the 5th timemyrren :"i just want to follow you"me : "u must tell me why first "myrren :" cos i love you"me : " huh..what did you say?"myrren * long pause then tears welled up* : " ....."me : " you said you love me ah?"myrren : " yes.."me* awwww..* : " come, i hug you"and myrren came over to me and gave me the tightest, warmest, loveliest hug i have ever felt..more often than not, i overlooked their feelings cos i always think that they are just young kids and they wont really remember so much about a teacher yet i was so wrong. tho i cant believe that myrren could be so attached to me, i am still awed by the incident and it has definitely left an impresssion on me. thank you myrren, i love you too, you've touched me in a very special manner.the CNY strategies.in an extra effort (going to be made) by every realtive to be extra nice to everyone, i shall make extra effort to be extra happy to see my relatives. i shall repeat the same answers every year to the same questions asked for the past 5 years..maybe i will make extra effort to give extended answers if their bah gua is nice..hmmm...yummy..
Sunshine ; Saturday, February 17, 2007
