Thursday, February 08, 2007
perplexed...
i cannot comprehend her way of handling things and why is it that she always gets first hand news? why is it that the info have to go thru her hands to get to me? what am i missing out on? what is she doing? what is she tryin to prove? that she is very competent? that she is more capable than me? if she really wants to prove herself so much then fine but do it within your boundaries man. if she really wants to replace me so much then go ahead, i couldnt care less abt titles or positions and promotions at all. if status satisfies you then go claim it. I will just be thankful that my life is not about how much money i get, the promotions i get or the status i possess. i am worth so much more than that.
the same questions i asked myself many times, what do i really teach?
values or syllabus? meaning or words? character or lesson plans?
why do i feel that im handicapped? i have the best facilities i can find in a school, i have a big work station, i have many colleagues and i have parents who readily support the events i run for the class therefore, what is missing?
passion...
i started my second semster of my first academic year in sim and the first lecture was not what i expected it to be. it was about religion and science and i left after sitting through an hour of lecture. it was my first time skipping lecture.
the second day was so much better, english really filled me in. i learnt about speech acquitsition in a child's development and the different stages of speech which i think, is really useful now, especially when im teaching young kids. i shall look forward to more lectures and gaining new knowledge.
just as i was thinking if i will ever get a chance to lead singing, mrs lim walked past me, as if she could hear my mind talking and gave me this chance which i will never forget. story of roy and ethan received positive feedback frm yew ling and kellyn which meant a lot to me. the story was thought of in just a few minutes and it still managed to minister to others, who else to thank then the author who put this story in mind, GOD!
primary pal...
finally i got to meet yati and gordon who is such a nice guy, so easy to talk to him and someone who is so accomodating. yati, as usual, so down to earth though she is filthy rich. we had japanese cusine and though its costly, i must give credit to the food which was of good quality. even a bowl of udon was incredibly tasty. i knew it was a good choice to have jap food when i saw some japanese there. i take them as the benchmark of the food there, if japanese will go there and eat, then the food there must be authentic and good.
everytime i watch japan hour, i admire how each eatery takes pride in what they are doing and there will not be any compromises make on the freshness and the quality of the food they serve, regardless of the size if the restaurant. fantastic!
philosophical...
"my child has difficulties learning his hanyu pingyin, i also have difficulties coaching him , i think many parents are also having the same difficulties, can you help us on this?"
"the responsibility of educating your child is great and i feel that this responsibility should not just lie on me alone. altho i do not have a child, i understand the difficulties you are having because i face 30 over students at one go. as parents, you really have try your best to go thru everythhing with them becos in sch0ol, i have my contraints tho i will def do my best to teach your child everything he or she should know. it is more difficult for your child if he does not have your support, what can i do? i can hug them, even kiss them if you allow me to, i reward them with stickers, but thats all i can do! to your child, nothing else is worth doing if he doesnt get your support. if your child is learning such a difficult thing at such a young age, then we should also sit down and learn with him. i am not the best chinese teacher here but i will do my best to bring out the best in your child, i hope you will also give your best in supporting him."
my dialogue session with the parents during the open house, i was in shock that i said all those words, i couldnt believe that i said all these but ming said i did the right thing, i hope so.
the trend now is, to assume that chinese is difficult to learn and we should just give up. however, should we allow the norm to shape us? or should we be who we really are? no matter how far we go, we are still chinese, this is a fact that will never change, so why not be a proud chinese then pretend to be someone else?
Sunshine ; Thursday, February 08, 2007
