Saturday, August 18, 2007
been posted out for oral has blessed me with the knowledge of how other students are doing in their chinese and im pleasantly surprised to know how high the standard of chinese is at other schools. then i realised, once again...whatever im doing is just going through the motion and probably doesnt really bear any fruits.maybe i shd really consider what bro said, complete my degree first but after that, do i really want to continue teaching?hmmm..why do i feel a distance? is it you are still unhappy abt what has happened? sigh..shall we just put it behind and look forward? anyway things that are more difficult to achieve are more worthwhile to cherish, isnt it my dear twinnie? all that you are going through now are ploughing for a better future and before you know it, it will be over, though not that soon but it will be over my dear..and abt feeling worthless, useless and stupid..hahah i feel it all the time!!! oh well what kei said is right, God wont die for someone not important at all!! and you are important to me and you know i love you no matter what you are wearing on your head! wisdom doesnt come with certification, rem!! certification just empower you with more money and status.sometimes i wonder what difference does my presence make to the people around me? when i come home, everyone else functions well. when im in school, the students will be taken care of. hmm..maybe i need to clear the food on my table. must be one of the moments la..lin, i love you too, thank you for msging me when thoughts filled your head and i came to your mind.
Sunshine ; Saturday, August 18, 2007
