Thursday, October 18, 2007
it has c0me to a point that i feel uncomfortable seeing her and i asked myself, if she truly wants to know what happened, why is that she doesnt want to get it from the horse's mouth but instead choose to get it from someone else and then just based your judgement from there? why is it that my friend didnt choose to explain on my behalf and ensure that i dont get misunderstood? is it becos no one is on my side at all? everyone thinks im wrong?i asked a friend...me : will you judge your friend based on his/her personal relationship?friend : nome : why?friend : cos the person is my friend and i trust all my friends.me : so if someone misunderstood your friend, would you explain on his/her behalf?friend : no..why discuss abt others?me : its not discussion, i mean, why would you want your friend to be wronged?friend : if those who misunderstood my friend are not impt pple to my friend, then why bother? they are not impt to my friend, their opinions are also not impt.me : ohh...what friend said was worth thinking abt, it sort of enlightened me to some extent, at least i did not feel so lousy after that.i took a lift from someone who probably doesnt even want to be acquainted with me but cos of the "hostage" i had beside me, she had no choice. i had no choice too but got into the car reluctantly. for a while, i was totally disappointed but i thought everyone has his/her rights to feel the way they feel. it was a favour anyway, so i thanked her. i told myself i will not lose myself to other's anger or whatever they feel towards me. its not a matter of whether they are impt to me or not, its about not giving myself up for the world's judgement against me. i think i do deserve some love too."you still have people who love you unconditionally.." thks..
Sunshine ; Thursday, October 18, 2007
