I'm just different.
Monday, March 10, 2008
" personhood is formed through making decisions. we learn to think and weigh options, we discover what we truly value, we take responsibility for our choices. God wants us to be people, not roboots and that means we must make decisions."a passage i read in "THE LIFE YOU HAVE ALWAYS WANTED" spiritual discipline for ordinary people. A book which daniel and all gave me in o6 or o7 for my bday.my reflections..i told kei i was sorry for hurting her in the ways that i did maybe intentionally or unintentionally. my depression made me transfer the tension i hv within me to the pple around me. one day i will lose all these pple and it will unconceivable by then. i discover what i truly value...after each action we take, each word we say to others, they are all decisions we made. "to whom do i belong? to god or to the world? many of my daily preoccupations suggest that i belong to the world than to god. a little criticism makes me angry and a little rejection makes me depressed. a little praise raises my spirits and a little success excites me....often i am like small boat on the ocean at the mercy of its waves."according to the book, we all have some sort of approval addiction. we long to get some approval from our friends, our colleagues and of cos from our family as well. i find it very relevant and often think why am i so unhappy with the circumstances im in? when i saw shiqiu at the wedding dinner last night, i miss the days when we were so carefree and happy during school days. tho since young, im a worry-warrior, i always looked to her and rubbed off her always-be-happy attitude. yes its true, each day oredi has enuff worries on its own.live freely...twinnie, thks for being my friend and loving me and supporting me all along. wherever we are now or in future, you will always be my twinnie and we can always go shopping and facial together!!! i love you being yourself...believe in yourself too! you are much stronger than you think you are. i love you whether you are in pants or your green skirt!!kei, of cos i love you too. thks for tolerating with me and reminding me how much God loves me too. you are truly a blessing to me. thks for coming out even tho you have other commitments as well. your presence is very much appreciated. i cant wait for your wedding, its like one of my biggest event this year!!neh, you have showed me that when you put god first, he will grant you all your heart's desires. work hard, god will reward you when you place his kingdom first. of cos, i love you too. yoyo, no matter how far you are, i know we are always close at heart. thks for being there when i needed someone. love you!! i wll nvr forget the times when i was totally in shambles and you were there for me.ok thats all folks....from the not-s0-lovable-but-still-lovely-nahnah
Sunshine ; Monday, March 10, 2008