I'm just different.

Thursday, April 10, 2008

thks for praying for me, my cell members, our prayer has been answered!! hahah...my observation is finally over..i also got my tma result, rather sad but am thankful that i did better than i thought. its the first assignment that i really have no idea of what to write and its the module that makes me feel like giving up...especially when the grades dont help at all...

time really flies like a rocket these days..before i know it, its time to wake up and get back to work again..

do i feel productive? yes..cos its non-stop work

do i feel satisfied? no..cos its non-stop work

am i happy? no..cos its non-stop work

am i gg crazy? yes..cos its non-stop work

i really enjoy giving devotion recently..hahah tho my singing sucks!!

Sunshine ; Thursday, April 10, 2008

不知怎么的，心里有一种挫败感。好像觉得自己哪里不对劲？批阅工作越堆越多，自己读书的成绩，越靠越烂，心情每天漂浮不定。

是对自己的要求过高，还是根本就没有能力，是自己在勉强自己有突破吗？

心里暗藏了一股放弃的动力。。。

就这样既来之，则安之吗？

Sunshine ; Thursday, April 10, 2008

Monday, April 07, 2008

it perplexes me how i could stay in school until 6pm and not marked a single piece of paper. in order to make me feel beta, i decided to write down what i have done for the day and assure myself that i have not wasted the time away..cool..

never have i felt such tremendous work pressure and really feel like just giving it up..i wonder whats the point? since i am always clearing up pple's mess and leaving my own work to the very end. how can estimated potential and being rewarded with pb stem from different theories?

you mean someone who is hardworking and being rewared with pb is not smone with potential? when you reward someone with pb doesnt mean he/she has the potential? so we are right, arent we? we are being rewarded as just workers..whereas those who slack, those who just give brith, whose who are always on mc have the potential to work? on maternity leave also can get promoted?!! sigh..wonder the formula for these decisions..

stretched my plastic friend last sat and bought 3 dresses at qoosh..my ultimate dress shop at vivo..i found out that there is another outlet at far east!! another reason to go far east..my one stop shop! for that nice designs..i think its a good deal!

bought necklace, pearl earrings and leggings...ahh..love my plastic friend..

kei you shd come shop with me, i will teach you to stretch your $$! hahah..

drifting in and out of disappointments now and then..its crazy at times..alright stay +ve, come what may.

give me a gd reason to stay..

Sunshine ; Monday, April 07, 2008