I'm just different.
Friday, May 02, 2008
just when i tot that the meeting was more of the usual leader-talk-the-rest-just-listened kind of thing, it turned out to be a surprise and in fact, more than more i cld digest.time, charisa said god gave us one of these possessions which we are accountable for. i dont know abt you, but i am pressed for time, i always have this "bad" tot in my mind, "just send a msg and get excused for dance" many times i applaud myself for nt giving in to that tot and just go on to serve and tho i come back with aches and fatigue, i served with all that i have. but of cos, when i really need to mark and be a responsible 'cher, i just send the msg over knowing that i wont get condemned.so now, how cld you say such thgs like "taking leave in dance is a condemned act and i will be deemed as irresponsible" well my qn to you is, if you think that you have geniuine reasons, why wld you think that you will be condemned? and how long have you be in this ministry? aint it long enuff for you to know that there is no condemnation here? hw can smone claimed that " oh i have sought the bible and God has revealed to me that i shd obey authorities..why not we tk a vote?" excuse me, are you rallying support to go against your leader who has been serving for years and has not yet taken any leave and still put up with yr accusations..and you claimed you sough the word?sorry being very emotional here, i have never cried at an agm, i mean, seriously who wld? well yesterday, cher, charisa and me did. i vaguely saw tears brimming in cher's eyes. cos we rem the times when we fought ourselves to still make the trip to woodlands, we gave up time to study to work, to rest, to think, to restore, knowing that God has greater rewards for us. hw can a ministry be there to burn you out? who doesnt have a family? do they have a son who just entered pri 1? do they have ageing parents? do they need to work for a living just so that there will be food on the table at the end of the day? come on, if you have time management problems, short of time for facial, spas, shopping, and what nots, do not proclaim that it is the ministry's fault..this is yr personal struggle. yes we are abiding by a standard, cos this standard has enabled the ministry to be what it is today. why shd the the ministry's standard be shifted just cos you need more time for yourself now? has the ministry changed? no you did.neh said that if a ministry mks pple happy and comfortable, more pple will step forward to serve. i beg to differ, that is a hobby, that is not commitment. commitment is doing what you need to do even if you dont like it.if i am wrong, i deserve to be rebuked, if not, i can look forward to my rewards.charisa i love you, you have been the greatest leader to me.
Sunshine ; Friday, May 02, 2008