I'm just different.
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
i can say that the offer came at the right moment..just as i was thking of gg on NPL next year, she said that when she prayed for the dept, my name came up to her and i wonder if god has used someone else to speak to me instead. coincidentally no 1 also offered me the same position.sonewhere deep down in my heart, i know there is some kind of excitement which im trying to suppress, for what reason, i dunno. so far, after speaking to a few close friends, all of them showed support and i really appreciate them a lot..thks friends, your support really mean a lot to me esp twinnie. haven really seen kei around much, hoping to catch her and tell her this.really need to confess my excitement that im sort of looking forward to taking a big step into my development and i know there will be a lot to learn and my fear is whether i will be able to handle it, joc is right, if it is God's will, his grace is sufficient for me.i prayed for His confirmation to come..prob it came oredi.as i watched her saying grace for her food, i was more filled with unbelief and disgust than joy...i know its wrong but i just dont feel positive abt it at all, its like she doesnt deserve it..of cos, God's love extends to all those who dont deserve it..like me..ok let god be god. shall not judge abt it.met ivy and faith and got my new coach wristlet!! awww..so lovely and it was great to meet up with the girls. just love all the chatting and updating and feeling good abt being part of each others' lives.ok back to work for now!!
Sunshine ; Wednesday, June 25, 2008