I'm just different.

Monday, July 28, 2008

been too long and too busy to blog and in fact, do anything else other than spending time in school. ironically, i still haven cleared my mountain but cleared more of the recent work. sigh..it just took me one a few evenings out to be overloaded with markings...

took one day off today to relax and end up doing housework hhah..not bad at least i chged my bedsheets, cleared my laundry and nice aunty came to iron my clothes altho it was not free!! anyhow, as long as the laundry basket is cleared, im not that stressed anymore.

mummy has been passing sour mangoes for me to eat..i hate it!!! i want sweet and riped ones!!

ok with regards to twinnie's msg; what do i do to keep myself happy?

eat ice cream with mickey
have steamboat sessions
have BBQ sessions
going ntuc with twinnie
cooking with mickey
going for spas
shopping
dancing
playing netball
go for buffet
go to the beach with mickey to cycle
talk talk to twinnie
thinking abt my japan trip
reading the notes that twinnie wrote me
buying christmas pressies
watch xiao ding dang
watch funny shows
watch SATC but sadly everythg has been removed from youtube!!
feed my mouse
sleep

hahah twinnie, i have a longer list than you!! hahah

Sunshine ; Monday, July 28, 2008

Monday, July 21, 2008

as much as i regret saying it, im truly tired and disappointed with my marking progress. i really could not mark at all after going for so many dance sessions which ended late and busy with other thgs other than marking..sigh..today i woke up hating myself for being such a disappointment.

i had a great wkend tho..had bbq and buffet on both days. for once, i did not need to prepare anythg for bbq and just concentrate on eating..yummy!!!

ok onward and forward..

i almost went crazy if not for twinnie who came to tok to me...thks dearie

Sunshine ; Monday, July 21, 2008

Monday, July 14, 2008

I can read your mind and I know your story
I see what youre going through
Its an uphill climb, and Im feeling sorry
But I know it will come to you

Dont surrender cause you can win
In this thing called love

When you want it the most theres no easy way out
When youre ready to go and your hearts left in doubt
Dont give up on your faith
Love comes to those who believe it
And thats the way it is

When you question me for a simple answer
I dont know what to say, no
But its plain to see, if you stick together
Youre gonna find a way, yeah

So dont surrender cause you can win
In this thing called love

When you want it the most theres no easy way out
When youre ready to go and your hearts left in doubt
Dont give up on your faith
Love comes to those who believe it
And thats the way it is

When life is empty with no tomorrow
And loneliness starts to call
Baby, dont worry, forget your sorrow
cause loves gonna conquer it all, all

When you want it the most theres no easy way out
When youre ready to go and your hearts left in doubt
Dont give up on your faith
Love comes to those who believe it
And thats the way it is

Sunshine ; Monday, July 14, 2008

i don my complete ballet attire, consisting of ballet tights, shorts, wrapped skirt and leotard for ballet trgn last wk. tho i feel like a bah zang but i totally enjoyed the "ballerina" feeling. i feel extremely pro and i felt better dancing. i cld stretched more easily and somehow, trgn was just more interesting..hahaha..

just came back from dance performance with the girls and reached school at 530pm, tmr will only be back at 1030pm. i wonder why werent the other trs activated since they are in the pm and can at least wake up later. we are oredi up since 6 am and stl need to stay until 1030pm then wake up at 6am again the next morning, i mean, its really more than 15 hrs spent doing sch stuff leh. the same qn in my head, why isnt the workload distributed equally?

"handling over" is a lousy excuse to use and now, since we know its not me then why isnt the next chief doing the bulk of it? is it true that the next chief will mk me do just as much too?

ok this is the time when im being too petty and calculative. im actually given strength to overcome whatever i needed to do today so thank God.

was pleasantly surprised by twinnie who gave me an amazing gift and a letter written very beautifully. thks twinnie, i love the file and the notebook. i love receiving letters!! hahah..

still wanna end off the day knowing that im very blessed and happiness is really a choice and so my choice of mood today is, Im Happy mode.

Sunshine ; Monday, July 14, 2008

i realised that im naturally happy when i attend ballet trgn and netball trgn, so since im always doing the thgs that i love to do and being around pple whom i love, i am perplexed by how grouchy i can get sometimes, i mean i am so fortunate rite???

and so, i MUST BE HAPPY and actually be contented with what i have and going to have. i love being me, really...i have so many thgs i wanna do and i have a great church, ministry and cell grp which takes care of my spiritual life and the many darlings i have to take care of me physically and emotionally. life is great rite?

i feel very blessed upon receiving the tuition assignt tho im not sure if i can handle it but ill try. I thank God for giving me a chance to work and the opport to earn more $.

ahh..i love me!!

Sunshine ; Monday, July 14, 2008

Saturday, July 05, 2008

I want somebody to share
Share the rest of my life
Share my innermost thoughts
Know my intimate details
Someone who'll stand by my side
And give me support
And in return
She'll get my support

She will listen to me
When I want to speak
About the world we live in
And life in general
Though my views may be wrong
They may even be perverted
She'll hear me out
And won't easily be converted
To my way of thinking
In fact she'll often disagree
But at the end of it all
She will understand me

I want somebody who cares
For me passionately
With every thought and with every breath
Someone who'll help me see things
In a different light
All the things I detest
I will almost like

I don't want to be tied
To anyone's strings
I'm carefully trying to steer clear
Of those things

And when I'm asleep
I want somebody
Who will put their arms around me
And kiss me tenderly
Though things like this
Make me sick
In a case like this
I'll get away with it.

Sunshine ; Saturday, July 05, 2008

"God places us in unique circumstances where our abilities match the problem He wants to fix. Jesus said that what we do for those in need, we do for Him (Matt. 25:35-40).
Have you found a problem? How might you be God's solution? God may want you to be an answer to someone's prayer. "

read this for today's devotion and got this urge to post it..perhaps someone needs it other than me.

last night i was thinking about this, is it easier to make changes in where i am now than move on to an unfamiliar territory and try to adjust thgs? i seem to have no answer to that. since discussion has been postponed to tues, i guess i still have time to ponder abt my decision.

i just cant tolerate the environment, its full of favouritism, prejudice and discouragement. how to groom pple like that? how to explore new ideas like that? why only take the opinion of one person? why only trust the few whom you favour?

ok enough of senseless issues to think abt, its not worth my attention now. shall just focus on my future now.

the past 2 wks have been very fruitful, i have been managing time rather well *applause* yeah! leaving school between 3-5pm almost everyday and found time to rest and spend time with pple whom i love, had dinner and lunches with twinnie and kei, went to catch movie with avalanche kakis and of cos spent time with neh too.

had fishhead steamboat with twinnie for the 2nd time and i really appreciate her coming out with us as she puts aside her own discomfort, though i hope not much. thks twinnie, for going dinner with us. we love you!! i love you!! i really appreciate your presence.

been eating regularly, again thks to twinnie and kei for buying me packed lunches and snacks so that i wont starve just during afternoon classes.

lsp has been improving at a steady rate and i am really proud of them. esp benedict, i can see confidence in him and he is unleashing his potential in learning now. good for him! *quote joshua

one thg i need to do is really to clear the marking i still have and concentrate on my teaching in class as this remaining 6 mths is really crucial to the kids.

am i really called for teaching? been 3 years and i still wonder.

the road to finding yourself is always not easy,
some find it in their loved ones,
some find it in their work,
some people find it in their dreams,
some found it their eulogy,
some reckon with the characters in a novel,
some reconcile themselves in God,
take heart, you will never lose something that is always embedded in you.

Courage is fear that has said its prayers. ~Dorothy Bernard

Courage is the power to let go of the familiar. ~Raymond Lindquist

lets move forward...

Sunshine ; Saturday, July 05, 2008

Thursday, July 03, 2008

ok here's the list for sunday..

venue : kei's place

pple involved : driver, housekeeper and husband ( late arrival ), twinnies, yoyo ( late arrival ) and meow meow ( kei to invite )

time : 4pm onwards until...

cost : less than $50 each ( got ho liao so boh bian )

events : shoppers ( twinnie and twinnie ) will meet at ntuc at 4pm
housekeeper ( kei ) will be at home to prepare the physical set up.
driver ( there is only one driver ) so you will pick up shoppers at 445pm or 5pm.

duty : house keeper

set up table and and chairs
rinse all utensils and cutlery
prepare plastic boxes ( put raw food )
prepare ice

shoppers

shop for food

driver

pick up shoppers and stuff

food list

balls ( sotong and fish )
veg ( green and white )
flower crab (someone to buy frm market, neh's maid? )
prawns ( someone to buy frm market, neh's maid? )
tang hoon
egg ( kei to provide, you have? )
bean curd
udon
pork liver
baby clams
mushroom ( buttons and golden )
crab meat
chick fillet
pork fillet
fish
dumpling
pokka green tea
ice lemon tea
chilli
marinating sauce

things needed

mahjong set ( twinnie or kei )
cutlery ( kei )
utensils ( kei )
pepper, oyster sauce and soya sauce ( kei )
satay sticks ( twinnie )
newspapers ( kei )
plastic containers ( anybody )
empty stomach ( everybody )
spirit of fun ( everybody )
money to pay up ( everybody )

ok thats it for now...the above is still under construction, pending violent objections. rem your roles man!!!

Sunshine ; Thursday, July 03, 2008