Wednesday, September 24, 2008
god is great to me..settled schsettled GEsettled SIMsettled my ROall easier than i expected..up nextneed to clear marking start to buy thgs that i needstart tp pack which i don even know where to start!!!!! *panick panick*need to settle phoneneed to settle magazines deliveryneed to pray for strengh i know God will continue to lead me as i trust in him, like i said, if its from God, he will bring me thru swiftly.i will miss everyone..my dear twinnie, i will miss you a lot but dont be afraid, god will always be with you. you are not alone and you will not be, you r always in my heart wherever i go. you are destined to be my twinnie hahhahah..who knows..maybe years later, ill be ur shps twinnie again!! maybe we hv more time to hang out more often!! haahah..勇敢地走下去，我爱你哦！need to make full use of time now!因为有你，人生也有了憧憬因为有主，我的生命充满了希望
Sunshine ; Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Friday, September 19, 2008
oh my god!!!!!!!!!!!!! its so unbelievable!!!!!!!!!!! thank god..for his blessings!!! im getting a grad's pay tho im not one!!!i feel shocked, overwhelmed and surprised and confused and excited and exhilarating and i donno what else...its rojak inside me now...i am so loss for words now...is this what God really wants me to do? i prayed before and after the interview and before i returned the missed calls and i told god, if im not called for this then ill be where i am now and ill be contented teaching...and oh my god........look at what i will received!!!!! but i will really miss dancing..ok i will really need more strength to overcome whatever that will come in the next few months...ahhh i hope everything will go on smoothly from here.thks twinnie for supporting me..becos i love u so much, your support means lot to me.thks daniel for listening to me and giving me advices.of cos to my mickey, who has been with me and pitching for me all the way, i love you!! thank you for beliving in me. you reallly lift me up!
Sunshine ; Friday, September 19, 2008
Monday, September 15, 2008
it was a great weekend, the sermon on saturday was encouraging and i felt very motivated after that. pastor spoke abt divine love and tho its not new and we all know abt it but it spoke its way into my heart on saturday evening. everything in this universe was created out of love and this is becos our heavenly father loves us so much that he created everythg so lovely for us. if a relationship is not bound by God's love, it is unsustainable. God's love will let us look at another person with another perspective.if God loves me so much that he gave me so many beautiful thgs, i wonder why is it sometimes i hate myself so much? i have wasted too much time feeling down and out. though im tired cos of work and all but im still loved. i asked my class yest if they know that i love them, i expected them to say no but they shouted "yes we know..cos u teach us mah." i felt so touched and my efforts really are not wasted. i hope they will do even better next year under another teacher. i brought mooncake for them to eat..i think they love it cos they came back for 2nd round...hahahai love the pple around me. did well for first tma though it was rushed work but god is good...always rewarding me more than what i deserved. tmr is the interview, am excited and scared at the same time...hahah.life is too short to worry abt what others may think of me if i leave my current job..moreover they are pple whom i dont care at all..i want to pursue my dreams not pursue theirs so am not gg to be bothered if i really need to leave in nov. life without riches is poor, life without dreams is empty.
Sunshine ; Monday, September 15, 2008
Sunday, September 07, 2008
ahh..took a 3 hrs nap but still very slpy..whats up man...always get to sleep in in the morning but today is the last day of sleeping in!!! why am i always so slpy?still feeling sian...think the sense of no-fulfilment is still creeping in..must eradicate it!!! i wish i can B*** my marking..hahaha..i want to be a happy teacher!!! not a burdened one!!!feel useless not being to achieve anythg..but thats not what mickey said, mickey said its gd that im resting so that i can do smthg tmr..thk god for mickey..else dont know what to do..wanted to go out but end up staying at home cos of the rain and was too tired to get out of the house..mayb next week or maybe ill feel better next week then i wont resort to going out to feel better..twinnie, you must jia you too ok..
Sunshine ; Sunday, September 07, 2008
Monday, September 01, 2008
the weekend was a torture..rushed thru first tmacried buckets of tearsthe furthest i went was food court at interchangehad lousy complexionbut it all ended this morning when i woke up feeling good. altho i still have another tma to rush now, piles of books to mark blah blah blah...i did well today. the day was well spent. had sumptous lunch with beloved, as usual i ordered more than what we could eat. then went home to complete my resume. yes!! depsite having zero experience, i managed to write a page of A* bullshit and bravely sent it out. well even beloved said it was good so..its GOOD bullshit!yes i hope i clinch the job but i know i wont. at this point of time, my ultimatum is, i let God lead. if God wants me to stay in teaching, then ill just stay where i am until something beta comes along. im tired of feeling incompetent so i want to choose to believe that God knows my talents and i will be used mightily wherever i go. so if im gg to stay in teaching, i better be a darn good teacher! anyway peeps, i got into GE. not general election tho.went to party on fri with a totally new set of party goers or rather...party poopers!!! just as i was abt to hit the dance floor, they all scrambled home, twinnie and i were like "what sia?" so all the cinderellas went home leaving behind me, twinnie and beloved, the real party goers who eventually gave in to the time and went home 30 mins after the princesses left. sian.BUTit was fun when we got there. we saw twinnie's "crazy cousin" quoted twinnie who shouted "happy teachers day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" gleefully. i was looking for a hole at that point of time. decided to hide behind the person next to me who could not even cover my face..who was that huh?? anyway it was fun playing "ji gu ba" and 5-10 with the gang..hahahah.the party ended before it started. kuku..
Sunshine ; Monday, September 01, 2008
