one of the few days that im not napping on my off days..i decided to update the much neglected blog.

i shall start with my wish list since the much-loved christmas is on the way...afterwhich is my bday, so you guys have 1-2 months to save up. you are welcome!

1. jill sander's collection of clothes which i have been eyeing since the stock arrived in store yesterday.
2. iphone.
3. white bbg watch.
4. nice handbands.
5. a pair of diamond studs for my ear lobes.
6. 1 year's supply of ice cream. preferrably from venezia's nutella and belgian choc flavours.
7. $500 vouchers for me to make new pair of glasses.
8. 1 year's supply of buffet vouchers.
9. vacation to hokkaido.

last of it all...a tall order...A HOUSE of my own.

most recent news..i got transferred to 313 which was a goal i set when i joined the company. i sort of achieved both goals, became store manager and now moving on to the biggest store but somehow i am not very excited abt it. its another round of endless work and long hours and slimming period for me. im standin at 45kg now which i think its not bad at all.

maybe the press event does excite me a little and gosh i didnt even know that we do inivte some big shots to our opening preview, when i was reading her world mag last month, i was like "you mean we invited her to ion opening? for wat?" nonetheless, i guess its always beneficial to have a wide ranger of customers to the store.

the fashion show shd be quite interesting too i guess. i hope i will be able to bring some pple in! (don even know if im invited?! shd be rite since im the sm...) anyhow, i was just too bored in store the past 1 week, just not used to standing around and not activating my brains.

while im really worried abt how am i gg to run the store with so many staff and that kind of size of the store, im thankful that im given this opportunity to run this store and im so glad that the staff i chose are coming to join me, they will be part of my motivation. beloved is rite, dont like one black sheep spoils everything else that is beautiful. :)

work is sometimes not just work, for me, work has become a huge part of me considering the effort and time i spend there, thats why i cant stand any negativity but i have myself to blame anyway, i didnt know that spending too much time on a person will result in betrayal. kj said "u cannot trust anyone, it will only end up in betrayal." i told him, this is not how its supposed to be! having said that, i shd really not invest too much personal hopes in someone..just leave it to the person to decide what they want to do. anyway, dear is rite, they are oredi adults, if they cant make decisions for themselves, no one would be able to.

i hope i will really get better and progress here. cheers to a better and happier 2010!

i cant believe it, its been a year oredi...last year this time, i was still in japan ahhaha..i miss japan, awesome convenience stores and absolutely delicious choco pies and choco mousse, the confusing shinjuku station, the yummy lobster bisque soup in soup stock, the tangy soba, the huge supermarkets and my comfy apartment..ahhh..wonderful memories.

last heard lots of drama in sch..im glad im out of it and now that im out of it, i wonder why pple spend so much time making somethg out of nothg and why do they hurt others deliberately? i haven heard of so much drama..but eversince she came into the sch, i have heard more and more. she has definitely added lots of spice in the depart. ok shall not discuss abt her in my blog.

i went to have ikea breakfast today, finally!we talked over breakfast, finished all the food we got, walked ard in the empty store and it felt so comfortable not seeing crowds. it was just a simple morning out and i love it! having breakfast with someone you love and just eating and talking is so soothing. i miss having breakfasts with twinnie, i always ordered fishball noodles and she will eat wanton mee. come to think of it, we haven had supper together. but i can imagine her ordering milo peng..ahahaha ok twinnie, next time we go jalan kayu with kei and yoyo ok? and the guys too!

i watched twilight on dvd and its amazingly boring..pls dont watch, i cannot comprehend whats the ra-ra abt among the teens. i think the new tvb drama gong xin ji is quite nice, might want to buy and watch.

ok am distracted by tv now, shall end this post now, btw, come to 313 and support!

Sunshine ; Wednesday, November 25, 2009


haven blogged in eons..

i went for a haircut today, had a short conversation over the phone with 2 best buddies, twinnie and daniel and i feel close to them tho we were separated by distance. i suppose thats how true blue friends will make you feel, never distant, always close at heart. love you guys..

went to parkway and saw evan and her husband, i was like wah...seems like a mini gathering somehow, first talked to twinnie and daniel then see evan..haha wat a coincidence!

things at work are getting heavier and heavier and i am beginning to feel negative at work..i am tired of feeling tired. there are so many things i need to do at work and most of the times i am thinking of helping others to clear their work so that they dont have to stay so late but end up, i am the one staying up until 2-3 am..i asked myself, what do i learn in the end? im always fighting fire and doing damage control for others..is this what i have to do?

there is another door open now which came as a pleasant surprise, when i received the msg, i didnt know how to react. i dont want to disappoint kj but this is an opportunity for me to have a more stable working hours which also means i can go back to church and most imptly, i can serve again. there are too many concerns i have which is making me feel quite lost at this juncture..

im praying for peace, be it at work, relationships with other or in decision-making...so please pray for me..thks.

ok congrats to myself and starhub, i might not have to switch to ST to get the iphone..wait and see what starhub comes up with..if i have the patience to wait. hehe..
Sunshine ; Wednesday, November 11, 2009


finally i see normal settings on blogspot...what a stupid cycle that technology has to depend on technology eventually.

anyway thks to all of you who oredi knew my big news and i wouldnt be able to make it without your support and prayers. thk you for believing me and giving me your encouragement. the most impt man in my life now has been an ardent supporter in whatever i do, pampering my worn out life with much love. thk you my dear love.

and above all, praise the Lord who has always been faithful and giving me nothg less than overwhelmin me with blessings and angels around me to protect me.

so japan, here i come again! gg to eat you up! hahaha..

i realised that no one has been calling me by my chinese name anymore...feels weird. haahah i was addressed by this name 3 full years only at one place...now it feels like everyone only knows me by janet.

still haven been meeting up with twinnie and girls, really want to spend some time with them and know how they are doing. well at least i did spend some time meeting ivy after she came back from states, i guess it really takes effort, she made an effort to bake some nice pasties and drop by my store to pass them to me. i think she did it 3 times and we met up 3 times as well..wah...i guess its cos you know you wont have so much time here, thats why you try your very best to meet up with your loved ones. we wont feel it until time is running out, thats what pastor always says, not much time oredi, quickly reach out.

there is some sort of connection you have with another person altho you dont meet them often but there are those whom you feel that you are totally out of their life. we always say "meet up with you again" but it doesnt happen. i rem lin and i wanted to meet up weekly since we stay so nearby but it just didnt work out, days passed and weeks just flew by and before you know it, it was 6 months ago when you two last met.

i guess my working hours also makes it very tough for others to accomodate my time. well, since i want to improve this situation!!! i shall not lament but will continue to improve all these thgs and love my life! i know i have pple who love me out there..thk you!! *muacks muacks!!
Sunshine ; Wednesday, September 02, 2009


many times, we need assurance, to tell us that we are still the most wonderful people around altho we pretty duslikeable at times, we need to know that others hate the same thing or person as we do, we just need someone to assure us, to love us altho we are so unlovable. i really thank god that i have these angels with me all the while.

thank you all, for loving me.
Sunshine ; Tuesday, August 11, 2009


ok blogspot's new post entry looks more normal now however the tool bar is still missing.

anyway after watching harry potter and the half blood prince, couldnt help but thank god that our tickets were free and that i had gd company else it will just add on to the woes of the anaemic show. you would think that this instalment is very much related to the "half-blood prince" just as the previous did had much to do with their themes. the disappointment came when professor snape just nonchalantly uttered " i am the half-blood prince"..what!!??? i was more disappointed that there wasnt much "magic" going on in hogwarts than dumbledore's death. i though the way he passed on was quite cool anyway. the whole movie was dark..literally, i tot it was the theatre but the picture itself was shot in a gloomy winter. sad. i still give my vote to LOTR for being the most awesome epic to watch.


went to attend my own church concert "light the way" with ivy and cher, it was an awesome experience! i felt so lifted and it was great to sing to God with all my breath. i lost my voice after the concert ended and even so, it was an amazing evening for me and i feel extremely proud of my church for composing such beautiful songs that encourages every soul. God is so good to us. i cant wait for the editing to be completed, i think i want to use the songs to bless others as well.


i was a little..actually very upset on saturday when 2 unhappy incidents happened just one after another. i prayed for peace and joy a and i must admit it took me a while to calm myself down. the human heart, the srtongest yet also the most fragile of all elements. it is true that only God can teach you how to love, only his love will help you to tide over the troubled times when you dun feel like loving anymore. if god can love someone unworthy like me, i think i should begin to love others more.

didnt achieve the goals i set last week for this week. now im just going to forget abt it and start setting goals for next week.

go cycling with beloved.
eat more nice lotte choco pies.( should be quite easy to accomplish)
go swimming.
praise 5 staff everyday.


i really miss dancing with charisa, jean, cher and joann..its going to be 1 year soon..i need to decide my long term plans. do i want to continue? give me your wisdom oh god.


its another windy day with blue skies outside my balcony..ahhh..god is so good to me. gave me my favourite weather.

hey twinnie, i love you. hope we can meet up soon!
jia you kei, god will open doors for you. love you!
jia you too yoyo, you will see the fruits of your labour soon. love you too!

to me and beloved, let's work hard for us too. love ya :)
Sunshine ; Tuesday, July 28, 2009


i dunno whats wrong with blogspot, or something wrong with my lappie...the window to blog looks weird, i cant even find my icons!! the fonts, the colours, the entire tool bar is gone!

i went to ballet under the stars last saturday, yeshhh..after my absence last year, it felt great to be there,watching ballet with my beloved. we packed lots of snacks, most of it went to my stomach which was prob why i was down with sore throat the next day :( beloved was not used to grabbing a seat publicly, so i let my bitchy side of me led the way. we walked right into the crowd and centre of the fort canning green and loudly claimed a small area "we sit here la!" in actual fact, the space was only worthy of one butt but we managed to squeeze our 2 butts in and unpacked our food. well..we were happy to be there at least we were not blocked! :) we enjoyed the performance a great deal but i was just much disgusted by the reactions of a girl to my right who cldnt help but kept looking in our direction. she laughed when the show was going on which i thought was super rude! she obviously didnt appreciate the time and effort devoted by the dancers and did some silly little gestures only worthy to be seen the zoo. she lied down just next to my bottle and i had the impulse to "accidentally" tipped my 1.25l bottle right on her face. she is just being a lousy audience..

anyway i had a haircut. tryin to get used to it tho.

i think i have been too unhappy..cos im always trying to get pple to be like me, to think like me and to work like me. sometimes, hmm..most of the times, i think its bettter not to be like me. i need to be more flexible. focus on solutions rather than problems.

i wonder if i will stay longer until i see the fruits of my labour or will history repeat itself again? i left before it happened.

sometimes i ask myself, do you really know what you want? how come others are always trying to make you believe that what they are doing for you is really what you want for yourself? do we all know what we really want or we are just trying to mould myself into someone whom our society or our organisation wants?

this is what i want to do next week;

eat healthy.
prepare lunchbox for myself.
meet up with my gfs.
adore my new haircut.
be more thrifty.
dont harp on nitty gritty stuff.
go watch sing-dollar?

ok dun set too many goals else will be too stressed trying to keep up. ok move on..
Sunshine ; Thursday, July 23, 2009


the young ones...

the things we did when we were young..

we carried umbro bags to school.

we bought 3 sweets for 10c.

snacks like "bee-bee", "kaka" and flavoured "sng-baos" (aka ice packs" after school.

a bowl of noodles in the tuckshop costs about 30c.

"maggie" was the only instant noodles brand we knew.

bus fare cost 25c.

you can purchased a movie ticket for $3.50

drinks in the coffeeshop came in glass bottles instead of cans.

we wore bata shoes, layered with "white liquid"

we used white chalk to "colour" our dirty shoes in class.

our boards in classrooms were green and we used chalks.

we played "zero-point", 5 stones, one-leg, catching, hide and seek during recesses.

we rode our bicycles to catch spiders.

we shared silly ghost stories about the top floor toilets in school that were never true.

the bespectacled wore think glasses.

we sat on wooded chairs and used wooded tables which occasionally saw some warsps building some nests inside the nails.

we exchanged "idol-cards" and sold shiny ones as well.

we rushed home to watch cartoons at 6:30pm after school.

our public phones were orange.

the dunkin-donuts at fengshan CC was the "in" place.

"elle" was considered branded.

your dad poured your milo on the porcelain tray for you to drink.

shouts of "ma peew po" were heard in the evening along the corridor. (young lads selling newspaper)


until more memories flood my mind..those were the days...
Sunshine ; Thursday, July 23, 2009


okay, first off day of the week and i get my sats off back again!! yes!! thank you, God and thank you, my boss. thank you for rewarding me.

the chatterbox is back as per requested..heheh

am going to meet up with the girls later, yes! gossip time! hahhaa and catching up time as well. the last time we met was in may, for twinnie's bday and now we are meeting again, thats not too bad i think, we are meeting once a month at least. which is both glad and sad to know, we used to see each other almost every single day of the year and now we have to be contented with just meeting up, hopefully once a month. its just the same thing that happened once you leave your school upon graduation, all those promises to meet have vanished into bubbles. so im really glad that im meeting the girls today :) now and then i do see some familiar faces and usually i dont recall their names. the amazing thg is, ALL of whom i saw still recognise me and remember my name.

alex : janet!
me walking around with my clipboard, jumped to his voice and frantically trying to match his face to all the schs i have attended and processin his name at the same time.
me: oh alex! *after 5 secs (not bad, i didnt have to buy 10s more to recall his name.) you look different!
alex: you still look the same! same hairstyle. ( too which i disagree, how could i possibly highlighted my hair when i was in 3E3?!)

you know when pple say you look the same, i dunno whether to take it as a compliment or not. does that mean i look as young as when i was 15? or i oredi looked like my age now when i was 15? why is it that pple who have seen me thru my years always say that i look the same aka younger than my actual age and pple who just met me thinks that im in my late twenties? why is my face so inconsistent? i think when i am at work,i look serious so that attributes to "you look 30."

staff innocently asked : may i know how old are you?
me: how "old" do you think i am?
staff : 30?
my heart broke into pieces and i looked over sternly : you dont have to come for work anymore.

how does old and experienced relate to each other? are they always parallel to each other? i have held 3 full time and 2 pt jobs in my life which prob doesnt happen to someone who is much older than me. does that mean i am old? since teachin days i have established this belief in me, old doesnt mean experienced, of cos when you live longer, you are exposed to more experiences but if i can be exposed to the same opportunities too. but well, one thing that is true, when you are older, opportunities come to to you, when you are young, you need to create them yourself.

ok im just trying to come up with some rubbish to eradicate the sick feeling of being called "30" even my mom has been remindin me that im almost there when i showed her a strand of gray hair altho i firmly believed its due to stress!!!

anyway i think being with pple who are older or looks older may help me find my youth back. the sad thg is, im surrounded by pple who are younger than me 95% of the time :( my youth can only be found at home now. sad..

SQ is married. its awesome to be part of the wedding esp when its someone whom you love and have been thru your growing years with you. i feel so glad for her that she has found someone whom she can spend her life with, lovingly. its just different when you attend your friend's wedding and your cousin's whom you dont really care abt. attending her wedding was more of an obligation than invitation. it was just sit and eat then go home kind of thg. sad but true.

i saw her world wedding mag when i bought her world mag and was tempted to buy. but for wat? just wanted to buy and see the princessy gowns and little cute flowers they used to decorate the dining table or the calla lilies the bride will be holding in her hands. i suddenly recalled that when i was young, i liked to draw wedding gowns because they simply looked gorgeous in magazines. of cos i wasnt that artistic to come up with any proper drawings, the point is, i just like lookin at wedding gowns. i think SQ's maroon bustier gown was gorgeous and her blue cheongsam which made her looked like miss hongkong was also a fantastic choice.

the breeze is lullaby-ing me to slp now but i shall not waste time slping. ill go read and yes, i prepared lunch and dinner for myself for the past 3 days! minus 3 days worth of oil and msg at work! *clap clap*

its blue sky today, just hanging outside my balcony now..ahhh..i love blue sky..





Sunshine ; Wednesday, June 17, 2009